I wish I could afford to talk to somebody about my chronic mystery illness. :(

I started having a lot of unexplainable health issues a few years ago. I don't want to go into specifics, but they're issues that are impossible for me to try to ignore because they severely impact my ability to function in my everyday life. Back when I still was able to keep a job, I saw a lot of doctors, but none of them were able to find a cause. I've given up on finding a cause...I don't think modern medicine can do anything for me. But it's still very, very stressful, and there is no one I can talk to about it. No one in my life even believes me let alone wants to hear about it. I am scared and frustrated all of the time because of how scary and debilitating the symptoms get. I think so many times throughout the day that I just want someone I can go to regularly to talk through it instead of keeping it all to myself. Except I can't afford it. I am not explaining properly, one of the biggest symptoms is that I have very bad brain fog and have a very hard time putting my thoughts into words. This is why I need someone I can talk to about it who will have no choice but to be patient with me and let me talk at my own pace as I manage to remember the words. I have posted about the situation on some other forums, and everyone always tells me the same thing...if you can't afford therapy, just go to your PCP and get antidepressants and anxiety pills. But those aren't very helpful. I already have those. They might make me feel a little less anxious, but they don't help with the problem of really needing someone I can talk to about how much all of this is affecting me. I'm sorry, I can't explain better. Thanks for listening. Please don't give me suggestions about free clinics, teaching clinics, sliding-scale clinics, blah blah blah...I've already tried to find options like that and I am not eligible or do not have local access to anything like that. I wish it wasn't so expensive to go to a therapist and I also wish I had a button I could push that would make me not wake up next time I go to sleep. Okay bye.

I am sorry for all that you are
Going through. Know that you are not alone. Hope somethings gives you relief.

Sounds very frustrating.

You are definitely not alone. Many people struggle with finding the type of care you are describing.

I'd suggest getting a symptom list together and give it to your primary care to see what s/he suggests.

You have asked us to not list potential resources, so I won't do so.

I hope you find a listening ear in your PC or elsewhere. It's important.

Take care of yourself.

WC

I've already been to my PCP plenty of times. There's nothing else she can do. She's tired of hearing about my problems. I've also been to many other PCPs over the years, so no, I'm not gonna just keep switching from doctor to doctor just to be told the same thing. Doctors can't help me. The only thing that would be helpful is being able to go somewhere and talk about it, but I can't afford that. Oh well.

Yeah... it doesn't seem like you are asking too much, yet making appears impossible?
My heart goes out to you.

WC

I don't know anything about your financial circumstances, and I don't know if you are a Christian, but if you can afford $140 per month, faithfulcounseling.com is a good place to go. It gives you access to a qualified therapist as much as you want.by text, phone, or video.