is repressed depression a thing?

I for those that don't know just got out of an inpatient stay at the hospital

I am wondering if there is such a thing repressed depression because what lead me to going to the hospital I in the first place was honestly I was getting to a point where I was lying to myself about my depressive state, I had gotten so good at masking it that I was starting to believe the lie I was telling myself.

now that I realize this I want to be more proactive about having something like this not occur again.
but not sure how to go about with it.
I do have an appointment with a therapist on Monday and I intend on bring it up with her.

I don't know if the term "repressed depression" is the actual medical term. I know that denial can be a kind of survival instinct that a lot of people fall into. It is difficult not to fall into that trap, because it works ..but for only so long. A person can repress their feelings until you hit the boiling point, and it seems to be far more lethal and devastating than dealing with the little doses on the daily.

Maybe, writing in a journal a little bit everyday would help you keep on top of your feelings instead of trying to ignore/bottle up all the emotions? You don't always have to explain all of your feelings, but just jotting them down in a "bullet point" style would help.

It's important to acknowledge our problems. Ignoring them will only make things worse.

Not consciously knowing that you have a condition or disorder is normal. As a teen I had no clue that I had depression or anxiety.

I do realize that but, I don't entirely think I am consciously trying to ignore them either.

I tend to "mask" my depression when I am out socially.
I am conscious of my depression, yet sometimes a bit in denial about its severity.

Good luck with your therapist. I hope it goes well for you!


WC