[puzzclar]

I see a new t today. I'm supper nervous... Let alone, the pain from my cyst is making it hard to think.... I'm on an anti- inflammatory, but if I sit up the pain is worse. Laying on my back feels better....

Then there is how I feel... I don't feel like DBT is working, or is it meds, or is it the pain!???? Is it bad that I hope to be put in the hospital for the cyst to be removed. Then something will go right for me.

Or then again maybe they will send me in patient.... Then maybe my disability will go through. Simply put, I'm frustrated to begin again with a new t. And I don't know if they can help, am I just so far gone that I'll die by sui... Who am I kidding, I won't do it. I hate my life

[Wild Coyote]

I hope things go well with your new therapist.
I also hope you feel better soon.


WC

[puzzclar]

I met with her. I'm scared that if I show intent that she will send me to the hospital. Ive had that too many times. I'm also scared that I won't have a med provider.

Honestly, with this I feel unsettled and the sui thoughts are returning..... There isn't intent, but I'm scared.