[MtnTime2896]

I can't afford the medication and insurance won't pay for it, I am running out of ways to reach my doctor's appointments and have to cancel half of them, and I can't bring myself to even care. I mean, I should care, it's kind of important in order to get better.

I'm back at that point again, where being alone is the most dangerous time for me, but being alone is all I want. I'm back at that point where I see everything as an outlet to end my life. Where I obsess over it and obsorb myself in everything to do with it. I have to calculate out every possible option. And then, like a scientist, I feel the overwhelming need to test these theories.

I don't know why I do this, why I get like this. I can't seem to distract myself from the obsession because it's driven by my already existing depression and SI. In truth, I don't want to be alive and I don't know why I still am. Maybe it's the confusion all day that keeps me from doing something, I don't know.

It is not surprising you can't get better if you can't get the treatment you need. I don't have the answers. In some cities, your city hall might have a suggestion but this is in larger cities (perhaps medium sized ones too!). There should be more help for people who can't afford their medications than is available.

[Shazerac]

I’m sorry you having such a rough time lately

Have you talked to your doctor and said “listen I can’t afford these Meds and my insurance won’t pay.” doctors tend to prescribe their favorite Meds and don’t think about costs on the pateint’s side. The majority of the fancy new and outrageously expensive Meds on the market are really no significant improvement over the previous generation of Meds.

My doctor tried to get me to switch to Latuda. I tried the samples and it was...OK but not really that different. It was going to cost me $1,000 per month I put my foot down and refused and went back to Seroquel which is dirt cheap. She also wanted me to take lexapro back before it was generic. It was going to cost $500 per month. Again I refused and take Celexa which is the previous version of lexapro. With my copay it’s only 5 bucks.

I know it’s hard for you right now, but please advocate for yourself and don’t give up yet.

[Fuzzybear]