It’s a scar. A mental scar to the gut by a person I opened up to and attacked me, and has been plotting on destroying my friendships overtime

I realized that after indulging myself with lots of sleep I desparately needed

The scar badly hurts

[Deejay14]

VO. This is sounding a bit paranoid. Your thinking seems a bit off. Time to start trusting in someone to help you,in whatever form that may be.

Working on it, but I hope you trust that what I say is true
The gut feeling and the memories collided.
Thanks for your concern

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Vibrating Obsidian

Working on it, but I hope you trust that what I say is true
The gut feeling and the memories collided.
Thanks for your concern

The gut feeling and the memories collided.

Do you want to expand on that? If you're saying what I interpret it as, then I may have experienced the same thing.

What do you interpret it as?

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Vibrating Obsidian

What do you interpret it as?

It's sort of difficult to explain, so you might have to be patient with me.

I have some past trauma, stuff that I'd rather stay pushed down and forgotten. And I was hurt by someone close, someone I really trusted. I'd pushed it down really far and one day it just came up. Before it came up, however, I always had this weird feeling when I was with them or thought about them. Turns out that this gut feeling wasn't anxiety or paranoia like people had been telling me.

In reality, I do suffer from paranoid delusions, hypervigilance and will even hallucinate when it all gets to be too much. Mix that all in with the PTSD and it becomes a nightmare that words fall short to explain. When I get like this, my depression and suicidal thoughts/impulses become exponentially worse.

I could be entirely off in my interpretation of what you said. If I am and you want to explain it to me, then please do.

I have nothing to elaborate. It's literally as I said - feels like a slice to the gut, memories and images of the person appear during the sensation