[introspectiveme]

I have a brother I don’t talk to. I have a mother who is sympathetic but she’s also quite forgetful. Every time I talk to her about my problems, I have to start over again. It’s frustrating, like banging my head against the wall

I have a father who thinks I’m seeking attention, he won’t spend a minute talking to me about my issues

I have friends who think I have no reason to be depressed. I have a good job, I am considered by many to be intelligent and also caring. The few friends I do have only show up when they need a drink. I have a few friends who have turned into passive aggressive nightmares because of the smallest of arguments

I have no sense of self worth or self respect. Absolutely none. This is sad, I know but I’ve been this way since I was 20. I am extremely sensitive to losing friendships, it tears me apart

I look quite old for my age, I’m 27, I am struggling but I still put in 8 hours a day or more

I have bad thoughts every day, i don’t live in a culture that is as understanding of depression as the west.

I don’t have social anxiety, I have general anxiety, I’m not a healthy person physically either, I’ve been suffering with TMD and an eye disorder and other things for almost 15 years now. I’ve sought treatment for the TMD but nothing works, and the eye problem I can ignore most of the time unless it is too bright or too dark

Lately a close friend of mine ended all ties with me. This was someone I could talk to everyday it’s been over a month now and I have no one now

I can honestly say I am completely alone right now and staring at a future that will get worse.

I just want someone to read this, that’s all

[Yzen]

I feel my family doesn't understand what I go though with anxiety and depression and are quick to ignore me or criticize me for my actions. For me, I look for help outside of my family: therapists, an acupuncturist, this site, online friends, and one former coworker that I know that struggles with anxiety.

I wonder if the TMD and physical issues are heightening your anxiety. Either massage, yoga, and acupuncture might help. I believe the physical wellbeing has a huge influence on our mental wellbeing.

I can relate to that feeling of losing friendships. You have so much to give and hurts when a friend rejects that. I hope things get much better for you.

[SeekerSeeking]

I've read your words and I understand...
As I've said somewhere else, just because you are related doesn't mean they are family.

I make healthy friends my family...

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I feel my family doesn't understand what I go though with anxiety and depression and are quick to ignore me or criticize me for my actions. For me, I look for help outside of my family: therapists, an acupuncturist, this site, online friends, and one former coworker that I know that struggles with anxiety.

I wonder if the TMD and physical issues are heightening your anxiety. Either massage, yoga, and acupuncture might help. I believe the physical wellbeing has a huge influence on our mental wellbeing.

I can relate to that feeling of losing friendships. You have so much to give and hurts when a friend rejects that. I hope things get much better for you.

It does affect me mentally, it's not something I can show to people and say "hey I'm constantly in discomfort"

Laughing or smiling too much will cause my ears to shut making me feel underwater

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by SeekerSeeking

I've read your words and I understand...
As I've said somewhere else, just because you are related doesn't mean they are family.

I make healthy friends my family...

You're right

But it's like that NIN song says

"Everyone I know goes away, in the end"

I have a friend who thinks I'm the worst person ever

[Shazerac]

My family is supportive .....about me being medicated. Not so much about admitting that we all f@cked up, not just me.

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by Shazerac

My family is supportive .....about me being medicated. Not so much about admitting that we all f@cked up, not just me.

If I start complaining, they'll usually try to make me feel guilty

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by introspectiveme

I have a brother I don’t talk to. I have a mother who is sympathetic but she’s also quite forgetful. Every time I talk to her about my problems, I have to start over again. It’s frustrating, like banging my head against the wall

I have a father who thinks I’m seeking attention, he won’t spend a minute talking to me about my issues

I have friends who think I have no reason to be depressed. I have a good job, I am considered by many to be intelligent and also caring. The few friends I do have only show up when they need a drink. I have a few friends who have turned into passive aggressive nightmares because of the smallest of arguments

I have no sense of self worth or self respect. Absolutely none. This is sad, I know but I’ve been this way since I was 20. I am extremely sensitive to losing friendships, it tears me apart

I look quite old for my age, I’m 27, I am struggling but I still put in 8 hours a day or more

I have bad thoughts every day, i don’t live in a culture that is as understanding of depression as the west.

I don’t have social anxiety, I have general anxiety, I’m not a healthy person physically either, I’ve been suffering with TMD and an eye disorder and other things for almost 15 years now. I’ve sought treatment for the TMD but nothing works, and the eye problem I can ignore most of the time unless it is too bright or too dark

Lately a close friend of mine ended all ties with me. This was someone I could talk to everyday it’s been over a month now and I have no one now

I can honestly say I am completely alone right now and staring at a future that will get worse.

I just want someone to read this, that’s all

For the longest time my mum thought I was just lazy rather than unwell . Because of her job she was sent on some mental health training. I think she understands a little now but she doesn't help much . She might send me a text now and then asking if I'm ok but that's the extent of her support .
I get on with my younger sister but now she is also depressed and we don't seem to communicate.
I have 2 brothers but one hates me and the other one is just out of prison .
My dad just gets mad at me and yells at me and puts me down so much that my depression gets worse.
Friends . I don't have any in real life. Everyone on pc have been very supportive . I'm glad I found this site .

I have 2 sisters and mom and dad. But they have the attention scope of a snail. I have to literally speak in two languages because my Portuguese is a little [censored] and half the time they have no idea what I'm saying.

Supportive....

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

For the longest time my mum thought I was just lazy rather than unwell . Because of her job she was sent on some mental health training. I think she understands a little now but she doesn't help much . She might send me a text now and then asking if I'm ok but that's the extent of her support .
I get on with my younger sister but now she is also depressed and we don't seem to communicate.
I have 2 brothers but one hates me and the other one is just out of prison .
My dad just gets mad at me and yells at me and puts me down so much that my depression gets worse.
Friends . I don't have any in real life. Everyone on pc have been very supportive . I'm glad I found this site .

I seriously don’t know what I would be doing right now if it weren’t for this site

[introspectiveme]

I’ve been living with my parents for two weeks now. I was really depressed.

I haven’t said a word for two days, and no one asked me if I’m ok

I think they’re worried but don’t know how to express it

I feel like just spread misery everywhere

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by 2ISAB

I have 2 sisters and mom and dad. But they have the attention scope of a snail. I have to literally speak in two languages because my Portuguese is a little [censored] and half the time they have no idea what I'm saying.

Supportive....

My native isn’t English and I find it hard to explain things to my mom who only knows one language. She doesn’t know how to use a phon either

[Yzen]

Originally Posted by introspectiveme

It does affect me mentally, it's not something I can show to people and say "hey I'm constantly in discomfort"

Laughing or smiling too much will cause my ears to shut making me feel underwater

Do you get headaches with the TMD too? I don't have TMD, but I have a physical issue that causes a headache that hurts like a circle around my head. I've been doing stretches and yoga-related positions and that helps. I wonder if jaw stretches could be of a benefit to you. You might have already tried that.

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by Yzen

Do you get headaches with the TMD too? I don't have TMD, but I have a physical issue that causes a headache that hurts like a circle around my head. I've been doing stretches and yoga-related positions and that helps. I wonder if jaw stretches could be of a benefit to you. You might have already tried that.

I don’t have headaches at all. Dizziness can occur but very rarely

I have tried stretches as well, but if I work my jaw too much, it can start a very loud clicking noise that won’t go away for days. I can make a noise that other people in the room can hear

Generally, I have very little or no support from my family. My sister is all that I have left in my family. She hardly calls me (we live 3000 miles apart); and when we do talk, it doesn't go very well.

However, my niece (my sister's daughter) has severe depression (much worse than mine). She (my niece) and I have never connected. She's extremely shy and doesn't talk much. We have never spoken on the phone; and she hardly talked to me when I used to visit my sister. It's been 12 years since I last visited and there's no indication I will be visiting there anytime soon. I wish that we could connect. At least we could support each other with depression.

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by will19

Generally, I have very little or no support from my family. I only have my sister, who is left in my family. She hardly calls me (we live 3000 miles apart); and when we do talk, it doesn't go very well.

However, my niece (my sister's daughter) has severe depression (much worse than mine). She (my niece) and I have never connected. She's extremely shy and doesn't talk much. We have never spoken on the phone; and she hardly talked to me when I used to visit my sister. It's been 12 years since I last visited and there's no indication I will be visiting there anytime soon. I wish that we could connect. At least we could support each other with depression.

I hope you both can connect and support each other. I think she would appreciate it too

[capricornicopia]

My family does try to be supportive, but I know they don't actually understand what goes on in my mind. My mom is actually a special education and emotional support teacher, she's been working with kids with mental and emotional disorders for over 30 years. So it's crazy to me how she doesn't seem to "get" what I'm going through. She tells me she doesn't get it because I'm intelligent, but she of all people should know that mental and emotional intelligence are two different things. It really bothers me that she's helped so many other people but can't understand her own daughter.

Me and my dad don't really talk about it. Same with my older sister. They know I'm struggling but we kind of just don't get deep into it.

Funny enough, the people I actually feel most accepted and understood by are my two nephews, ages 3 and 9. Kids truly are pure beings.

[introspectiveme]

My family watches all these shows on TV about mental illnesses recently and they know a little bit but don't understand how I can be depressed because they think they were good parents