[EnigmaticBeing]

My job isn't hard but is incredibly inconsistent in what's expected of me and also take up a lot of my energy being around my colleagues who seem bemused by the fact that despite my best efforts I'm not entirely neurotypical.

This is exhausting me. I have little to no appetite and eat mostly when around other people in situations where it would be weird not to. I've been battling anxiety attacks daily for several weeks and can't concentrate on anything, especially work. I often just spend my evenings watching youtube - on my better days I have dinner but these are few at the moment. Some days, I feel like I have no future. I don't even have the energy to do things I find fun unless coaxed into it by my boyfriend. I used to have so much more energy and motivation and now I just feel drained.

I don't really know what to do, if there's even an answer, or if I'm just weak.

[Skeezyks]

Well... I'm not a mental health professional. But, to me, what you're experiencing sounds like depression. I've read through your posts & I don't recall you mentioning if you see a therapist. If not, that's probably the thing to be doing. And then there are, of course, antidepressant medications you can try too. Here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of coping with depression:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/need-h...sode-try-this/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/strateg...ng-depression/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...-without-meds/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/the-ma...ic-depression/

[Fuzzybear]