[lifeless]

Hi
I have just joined you people.basically my problem is 17 years old.I am suffering from depression since last 17 years.it all started when in college my friends ragged some of the juniors severely.me being their friend,those juniors started bothering me psychologically during exam period.the fear of failing exam and ruining career pushed me into depression.i managed to clear exams.since last 16 years i havent seen those juniors.but i am not able to come out of depression.i am trying hard.i keep feeling as if someone will beat me.i am scared of interacting with anyone.this problem has almost ruined my life.do help me to come out of this.
lifeless

[sassypants]

Hi !

Sorry to hear that you are having a rough time.Have you
seen a doctor? Or taking med's?

17 years is really a long time. I have been seeing my
doc for 6 years, I should have gone sooner.
The people here are very supportive. I hope someone
can give you some ideas.
In the meantime, pls take care.

[lifeless]

Yes 17 years is a long time.i have seen doctor for almost a year.but it didnt help me much.

[Perna]

I think you have to "practice" what you want. You can't have what you don't believe you can. It is good you realize it is related to the juniors so long ago and that they're "gone" now. Think of what you want to do and remind yourself that they're gone and what you want is "for" you. It got much easier for me when I turned around things and saw that, that how hard I worked on my courses in graduate school, what projects I chose, what jobs, etc. could be "fun" and interesting because it was me choosing them for myself. You're not in competition with anyone else, just have to decide what you want and work at getting it.

[Peacemaker]

I read your post and my heart is breaking for you. 17 yrs. is a long time to be depressed. I have been seeing a psychiatrist for about 9 yrs now. actually, the first doc wasn't that good. Finally found a great one who helped me tremendously. Unfortunately, he was diagnosed with bone cancer and past away. I ended up seeing his nephew who is wonderful.

I have also seen several therapists that didn't help me. Finally, I chose to see a holistic therapist and have been depression free now for several yrs.

I think your first step is to find a good therapist who you feel you can talk to. If not, find another until you find one that you can talk to and helps you. I would also suggest finding a good psychiatrist that you can talk to that treats you with respect. If he/she doesn't, run like mad and find another. That way, you can receive a med or meds to help you. I wouldn't go to a primary care physician because I just don't feel like they understand psych meds well at all.

Depression generally can not be overcome without medication.

As far as this site, you came to the right place. People here are wonderful. If comfortable, try the support chat room. Lots of great help in there. Just jump in and say you need help. If no one is there, go to another chat room, and say you need help. I have noticed that when that happens, people run to your rescue.

Feel free to PM me anytime.

Blessings and Welcome,
Peacemaker (Sherri)

[recluse1]

(((((lifeless)))))) i dont know what else i can add to what the others have posted. i do think trying to talk to someone and thinking about meds is the best thing you could do.

hope you get the help and find the answers you need.
recluse1

[Fuzzybear]

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