[Vpunk]

Hey people! Im here to vent a bit about how i just dont feel like i belong in the life i have. That's the easiest way to sum it up but if i have to get into detail it feels like the life im living right now isnt the one i Should be living. My body doesnt feel mine my house doesnt feel like home anywhere i go in this city doesnt feel like i should be there. I do not know why but it makes me feel left out. I dont really have friends or people that really cares about me so that makes it even worse. I do have chronic depression due to hating my life and myself and it's been going on for more than 5 years which wore me out A Lot. I just cant see a reason to stay in a place that i already dont feel like i belong in. Do any of you have any ideas on what i can do?

Side note; my family is the most conservative people ı've ever seen so just keep that in mind.

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you are struggling with this. Unfortunately, I don't know as there is much of anything I can tell you about it other than that it is, perhaps, something that would be worthwhile seeing a therapist about. Two things that occurred to me, as I read your post, were the concept of existential depression & loneliness. So here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on these topics:

https://psychcentral.com/lib/what-is...al-depression/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/coping...al-depression/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/existe...human-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/loneliness/

[Fuzzybear]

[giddykitty]

I've been having this worry lately too. But then I think, maybe this is my life I just have an askewed perception. See, I grew up very differently, and I chose a life different than my upbringing. It's been pretty lonely company, but it still feels like it's the right thing to do. I just wish I felt more confident in that, because I'm getting really depressed. I don't want to be depressed and bring down others around me. I don't want them to see just how awful I feel,, but it's getting impossible to hide it....

but other days I feel better and maybe that's what's keeping me from the change. Days when I get into a new hobby or something. Yes, maybe hobbies would be helpful. Sorry I can't help more.

😞 I have no words of advice for you. Just some encouragement. Hang in there. Sometimes things seem to get worse before they get better. Life surprises you in good ways sometimes.

[Sasqautch]

I feel that way too on top of my bad anxiety and depression i stay isolated and seem to despise everyone outside including the government. I keep having the feeling running away to another country will help me. People say it wont but im still determined it will lol.