[littleblackdog]

So, after my short course of distress tolerance therapy I have been discharged from the psychological intervention service and will not be offered any more therapy.
Never mind that I feel worse now than when I started, which is what happened when I tried CBT and what they promised me wouldn't happen.
It feels like I am being punished because I failed at the therapy (didn't manage to stop SHing). They told me I wasn't failing, that I have a lot going on right now and they don't think doing more work is best for me (so I am being punished for my Granny, and then my Dad dying).

So, now I have no hope. I have no chance of more therapy and when I see my pdoc on Friday no doubt she will just increase the dose of medication (or maybe swap to something else that won't work).

I suppose I knew deep down that this would happen even though they reassured me at the start that it wouldn't but why would anyone take the time to help me when there are people with real problems who actually deserve to be helped.

[mote.of.soul]

Well, firstly you deserve the help just as much as anybody, littleblackdog. You may not feel that within yourself but it's true. Yes, see your doctor and express everything going on for you, and don't give up trying to grow and overcome your difficulties. Keep reaching out as well, you're not being punished, it's the mind that's all.

[ShadowGX]

You are worth helping. We all are. It makes me sick to think they would treat you like that. I don't know what to advise you to do, but I had to tell you that you're worth it and they suck.

[cryingontheinside]

You are worth helping. We all are . Well I think that's terrible that they won't give you any more therapy. That should be down to you to decide when you don't need it any more . I'm sorry that you have had this bad experience . Maybe if you speak to your pdoc she /he can contact them on your behalf .

[littleblackdog]

Well, I found out the real reason I was discharged by the psychological service: the woman who assessed me (a could of days after my dad died, having never met me before) was concerned that I might have an emotionally unstable personality disorder. Pdoc disagrees and so assessed me today and still disagrees so is going to talk to the psychologists again.
I do feel a bit let down that the psychologist I was seeing never said anything to me about this, and actually lied to me about the reasons for discharging me (though, in fairness, she may not have been told the full story by her supervisor).
Pdoc also changed my medication again so once again I go through the cycle of cross-tapering onto a new med, only for it not to work...