[MtnTime2896]

Today, you witnessed me smiling, though you knew it was false, you smiled beside me. Today, you witnessed me hiding away, yet again, and stayed with me inside the darkness. Today, you heard me lie and nodded along anyway. Today, you heard pain in my voice and tried to mend it with your own. Today, you never witnessed me cry. Today, you never found out the truths I hid away. Today, you let yourself believe I could get better. Today, you watched me leave you, again. Today, you asked me to call once I was safe.

I never called and never really planned to. I left knowing it could be the last time I walk away. I allowed you to believe I could get better. I chose not to tell you what's going on for me because I wasn't strong enough to do so. I cried out for help when I was alone, I do that a lot. I let you talk a piece of my mind down when I lost control. I lied, like I always do, and probably will do the same tomorrow. I barricaded myself inside my mind while you sat with me, hoping I'd come back. I smiled, though it was forced, I meant it for you; I always mean it for you.

Call me a liar, call me a thief. Call me a felon, tell me my future is bleak. But when I die, remember today. Remember that I did it for you. And please don't be like me, it's lonely. I never want you to be alone. I loved you more than I ever showed, it wasn't fair, but it was real. Not once have I been perfect, no one is but you came the closest. Magnificence, that's what I see in you. Find peace and shine on. I hope there's enough left of me to shine ever so dim next to you.

(((((hugs)))))))

[Candy1955]

Nope. While your post is beautiful and eloquent, I cannot let you off the hook. That's not how it goes or how it ends up in the hearts, minds and memories of those left behind. Ask me and I'll tell you what's left behind. Me, and everyone else who loves you.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( So leigheas )))))))

[whisperingskye]

I truly hope this post isn’t saying what I think it is. I’m here, always, and if I can help in any way please talk to me. Even if you don’t think I can help, talk to me anyway. You have become a good friend to me, and I would hate to lose you. Please rethink buddy.

[Bill3]