[MtnTime2896]

I'll find out more on Monday, but it looks like I may be heading to a long-term treatment facility. Not gonna lie, I've been barely hanging on, especially for the last few days.

SH trigger warning

Possible trigger:

I can't stop feeling and staring at my scars. I haven't hurt myself in a couple months, but lately it's the only thing I can think about in between the suicidal thoughts.

So, yeah, that's become difficult to deal with.

Last night, I had so many nightmares, kept waking up in a cold sweat and just finally decided to stay up after I had enough. I couldn't shake the feeling before, during and few minutes after trying to sleep that something was terrorizing me. Maybe not entirely demonic but definitely a **** head. Okay, maybe I was convinced a demon was trying to possess me. I still think something is. I'm trying to combat it but... when I feel them inside my head and sometimes causing physical pain, it's so hard to tell myself it's not real. I feel a hand gripping my arm right now. It just doesn't stop.

[raf_edd]

Hi there! Please be calm, and if you feel that bad right now, please activate your resources and get to the hospital right now. No words I can say could reach you as much as I would love to. All I can say I'm here in spirit with you, I know that feeling I spent 48 with no sleep in that state. Seek help, NOW! bless you, anything message me private. Bless you

[mote.of.soul]

Good on you Só leigheas, you'll get through this. I read your posts and I think, wow, such endurance, such courage. Keep going Só leigheas, you'll beat this eventually, I honestly do sense that.

[MtnTime2896]

I appreciate it guys. My T told me I could call him at any time and until we figure things out I'm staying with friends who are aware of my situation. I hate it but I'm letting people in and letting them help, probably for the first time in my life. Anyway, they aren't leaving me alone much unless I'm asleep (and even then they stay close).

[Candy1955]

I wish the best for you.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( So leigheas ))))))))

[MickeyCheeky]

You can do this.. I'm so glad you asked for help

[katydid777]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I'll find out more on Monday, but it looks like I may be heading to a long-term treatment facility. Not gonna lie, I've been barely hanging on, especially for the last few days.

SH trigger warning

Possible trigger:

I can't stop feeling and staring at my scars. I haven't hurt myself in a couple months, but lately it's the only thing I can think about in between the suicidal thoughts.

So, yeah, that's become difficult to deal with.

Last night, I had so many nightmares, kept waking up in a cold sweat and just finally decided to stay up after I had enough. I couldn't shake the feeling before, during and few minutes after trying to sleep that something was terrorizing me. Maybe not entirely demonic but definitely a **** head. Okay, maybe I was convinced a demon was trying to possess me. I still think something is. I'm trying to combat it but... when I feel them inside my head and sometimes causing physical pain, it's so hard to tell myself it's not real. I feel a hand gripping my arm right now. It just doesn't stop.

(((((((So MANY THOUGHTS, HUGS, AND PRAYERS SENT YOUR WAY)))))))

[Wild Coyote]

Thinking of you.

WC

[downandlonely]

I'm sorry things are so bad. I hope you can go to a long-term treatment facility and get the help you need. Good for you for letting your friends help.