[chris87]

I feel like my life is too difficult, and I just want to give up. I'm so tired of struggling. Everything is hard for me, and everything that I touch turns into a disaster. I have no motivation, and even though I want to change, I can't do it. I hardly ever look forward to starting my day, and I am never productive. I am constantly worried/nervous (health, money, future, etc). I had a stressful experience about a year ago, and it changed me somehow.

I also can't make decisions without getting extremely overwhelmed. If I have more than one option to choose from, I totally freak out. I'm so worried about making the right choice that I end up choosing nothing. Focus and concentration are almost non-existent. I'll spend more time staring at my computer screen than doing actual work. At times, I feel a strong desire to leave everything. It's like I want to move 3,000 miles away, so I can be free of my daily life.

Nothing good ever seems to happen. As an example, my car got stolen a few days ago. I feel like the timing could not have been worse, and I have no interest in dealing with it. Just the thought of having to buy a new car is an ordeal. Everything requires too much effort, even something as simple as reading a book. At some point in my life (I'm 29 now), I feel like I had potential. I don't feel that way anymore, and I don't envision myself ever being productive or successful.

Something that really bothers me is that I am always helping other people, but I can never seem to help myself. To others, I probably look like I am in complete control of my life. In reality, it's an utter mess.

In the past, I've been treated for ADHD, OCD (70% resolved), and some minor social anxiety. The medications never really did anything, and I hated taking them. I feel like there is so much wrong that it's almost impossible to fix anything. Even the smallest tasks feel insurmountable.

[Candy1955]

Maybe go back to your doctor and say the same things you just said above. Go with what the doctor wants you to do for 6 months and see if you're better.
I went through the same thing recently and I'm a lot older than you. First time in my life and it turned out to be depression and anxiety. The two together can be very confusing and exhausting. Good luck to you. Keep us posted?

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you are feeling so defeated. I don't have any suggestions to offer you. But I wanted to at least leave a short reply letting you know I read your post... and I wish you well...

[mugwort2]

I am not certain what to say except to give you my support. Hopefully your pdoc or primary can help you I am not dismissing anything you wrote since I don't know you and your situation. I am am diagnosed with major depression. Its terrible prob. for me trying to make up my mind. I can and do relate. I find getting enough sleep is helpful. Its not only what is happening its how one feels about it too.

[KR2018]

I can definitely relate to what you're feeling. Have you found a good therapist to help you start to sort through the sense of overwhelm and depression you're struggling with? You say you're always helping others which is great if its for the right reasons, but that's something I've had to learn and took years to do it, that we need to treat ourselves with the same support compassion and love as we would our best friend or loved one. Otherwise we have nothing left to nurture ourselves.