[MatBell]

I’m so bad at it. Just having a semi-good life is challenging.
Something just triggered me so I had to write. It mainly comes from seeing/hearing other people having what I don’t have and never have had. Then I just feel like such a complete failure.

Do you ever think “why the hell am I like this” and really having a hard time understanding why you’ve been the way you have for so long? I don’t really get it. It’s such a lonely feeling.

[cryingontheinside]

Yes I feel so similar. I more than struggle to get through each day . I don't have any kind of normal or fulfilling life . I don't know why I am like this and why I've been like this for so wrong . I am the problem because my mind is too damaged . I will never be happy or have a good life .
Right now I can't even look after myself , my place is a tip .
My daughter lives with my mum and she is sick and my mum had to take her to the hospital. My mum agreed that I probably shouldn't go because my anxiety will trigger my daughter's anxiety . I feel like such a bad person . My daughter is in the hospital. I think she needs to stay there for a few days . I am useless I can't even go there . I am such a bad person what is the point of my existence . I can't even help the people I love . I can't even look after myself. What kind of terrible person am I.
I'm sorry for talking about myself but I read your question and I just had to answer . I can really relate to what you are saying so much. I'm sorry you got triggered to day too.

MatBell I know that feeling, hang in there

[marvin_pa]

We could form an exclusive Lodge for the Lousy at Living...

Seriously, those thoughts have been around me for my whole life - though I did at some point, realize that often what other people seemingly 'had', was a facade, or they were blissfully unaware that they lacked any depth/meaning in their lives, or was something I actually didn't want.

That's not to diminish the hard & lonely road we sometimes find ourselves on.

[ShadowGX]

I know that feeling too. I'm unsure what words of encouragement I could provide, so I'll just drop a hug.

[MatBell]

I got out this morning to get my bike. And it’s stolen....

I’m so ****ing tired and sick of everything. Feel like I’m so hopeless. The day turned from good to terrible in a few seconds

I " exist"

I know it's not enough (well it isn't for me)

but truly living requires me to answer questions.. what do you want from life, what do you want to be remembered for.. I can't answer any of that

Possible trigger:

I just want to be in the ground, and that's what I say to people when they ask me " what do you want?"

it's tragic

such a young life too

[mountainstream]

I can relate.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( hugs )))))))))

[downandlonely]

I try not to compare myself to other people. Odds are they have their own problems too that I don't know about. I try to remind myself of the good things in my life. Much easier said than done, I know.