[tigerlillie76]

I don't know what to do. Life really sucks right now. It doesn't seem that anything I do can change it. The only problem is I can't bear it anymore. I'm stuck where I am at and there is no getting out. I try my best to be positive, but nothing good comes out of it. Only makes me more depressed when I realize I only have false hopes. How could I have been so stupid thinking things would change? That we were just going through tough times and things couldn't stay that way forever. Well, they didn't stay the same, they only got worse. I feel like I'm drowning in my own dispair. Why is there no help for the lost? What have we done so wrong to deserve so much torment? What do you do when you can't even afford to survive? So many questions and no answers, so much pain and sorrow with no way of obtaining relief. My life is filled with so much hopelessness.

[old_one]

Hang in there TigerLillie. I won't say it will be better cause i know you can't hear that right now. But you can survive. It's what we do. Just find something to hang on to and ride it out.

Things do change everyday, for the worse and for the better. Sometimes we just need to focus on surviving one more day.

huggs

(btw my cat is named tiger lilly)

[Fuzzybear]

[tigerlillie76]

Thanks old_one, I wish I could believe that right now. I just don't see it getting any better with these days and times. The world is one big messed up place and it is only getting worse. I don't feel like I have anywhere to turn. The only thing that keeps me going is my kids and I have to watch them suffer and my heart can't take it.

[tigerlillie76]

Today I went to my son's school to help out...
I thought it would help me to keep my mind off things to. It was hard even being there amoungst the smiling energetic 1st graders. They are so full of life and I wish I could be more like them, living only in the moment. It was so hard putting on a smile and helping with the Thanksgiving festivities, knowing there will be none this year for my family. Life is so cold and cruel.

[tigerlillie76]

Guess I'm outta luck here too.
{{{hangs head and walks away}}}

[Fuzzybear]

(((( growl - hope you come back )))))

[old_one]

You are not out of luck Tiger. There are a lot of great caring folks here. Just keep reading, and keep posting. I know its helping me to just read what others are going through and maybe offer some encouragement here and there. Remember the old saying: A joy shared is doubled and a burden shared is half. (or something like that hehe)

You are in my thoughts and prayers

[Tigerlilly]

Hey, as one tiger to another, I say this: live for today. I mean, tomorrow is a different day. Today, right now, exists, so do what you can to make it pleasant.
I'm facing the possibility of a life of destitution and complete isolation, but if I obessess on that, I won't make it. I'm not in a place where I feel that I can be proactive in improving my situation, but I cling to a shred of hope. I know things can get worse, but things can also get better. I don't EXPECT things to get better, but it's not out of the realm of possiblities.
For now, I count my blessings as paultry and pathetic as they may be compared to others because when I imagine what my future is really like, I can't cope.

[timeforsleep]

I think I can relate Tigerlillie. We face our hopelessness alone. And that can be the worst kind of lonely. Please know that there are others out there who are in despair. Deep, deep despair that no one deserves. It is easy to forget because in our daily routine of work etc. we have to hide our misery. Which I'm sure you know is difficult.