[rise13eyond]

I hate it, and I hate that I hate it. Because whenever I hear about a death, especially someone who died young and/or tragically I just think to myself why them? Why not me? Why take someone with potential? Why take someone who didn't want to go? And I'm not sure jealous is always the correct term for how I feel about it, but it's the only one I have.

I think it's quite normal when depressed to have these feelings. However I believe there is a reason you are still here. It may not be clear yet, but I think one day it will be. I feel that as people we never truly comprehend the impact we have on others, but I do believe it's there. One small act can change someone else's whole world.

Never the less, these feelings are very normal. I'm sorry you are dealing with them and wish you strength.

[Fuzzybear]

Wishing you strength...

[whimsicalman]

I hear you. I have come close to death a couple of times in my life, and I often think, "Why didn't it just happen then? If it had I wouldn't be dealing with all these awful feelings now." I think jealous is a good enough word as any to describe the sentiment.

[rise13eyond]

Originally Posted by whimsicalman

I hear you. I have come close to death a couple of times in my life, and I often think, "Why didn't it just happen then? If it had I wouldn't be dealing with all these awful feelings now." I think jealous is a good enough word as any to describe the sentiment.

AH yeah, I've never been really close to death, but I have attempted suicide I've lost count of how many times. I find myself thinking a lot, I should be dead by now. A lot off what I think when someone else dies is, why take someone with potential? Why not take someone who's got no worth, nothing of value to offer?

I get Jealous about death as well, much for the same reasons actually... the people that die are usually people with a lot of potential and a lot of worth who don't deserve it

Possible trigger:

I do deserve it, so why am I still here

what cruel trick is this?

[Fuzzybear]

People with “potential” ...

I think this is a cruel trick “society” plays on people with MI..

Not only are they, apparently, without “potential” (for what?) but that equates to being of no value....

No wonder there are so many suicides