[smallbluefish]

i apologize in advance for the rant ahead and i hope it makes sense. i'm feeling a little overwhelmed at the moment because i just opened a letter that told me my application for an bursary for students with disabilities (which in this case includes mental health things like depression) was rejected.

the stressful part is that i remember the doctor i went to hesitated to fill the doctor's section out for me, and when she finally agreed, she definitely wrote it in a way that wouldn't meet the bursary criteria, even though my condition probably would have been accepted by the office. e.g. my depression's been around since i was a youth (the bursary requires it to have been around for 3+ yrs), but on the form she wrote that it had only been around for one year, because that's how long she's known me.

luckily i get second chances at the form, but i just feel so invalidated right now. i don't think the doctor means to be malicious but i constantly feel doubted by her, and i don't feel trust towards her. the application is also frustrating because it asks me to find a doctor who has known me long enough to give me a proper diagnosis, but how can i do that when i don't have a family doctor/psychiatrist and doctors at walk-ins only have 5 minutes with you??

i think it doesn't help that i opened the letter around midnight and now i'm going to worry about it instead of going to sleep, which will probably make me more tired and stressed...

[MickeyCheeky]

Sorry to hear this. Do you have an idea of why he was hesitant to fill the application?

[Yzen]

Sorry this happened to you. It is good you have second chances. Maybe you can find a new doctor and explain the situation with the bursary application and get their opinion on what to do. Hopefully they will be willing to help you out. You deserve that help.

[Fuzzybear]

I can relate. I have had many reasons not to trust doctors (in this forest(