[MtnTime2896]

I've posted about masks before and have been a part of a couple threads regarding the same topic. I guess, regardless of it being covered, I still feel trapped in this subject. I had recently started being very honest with others and my T. I was doing good and getting stuff out, working the problems and trying to move forward. I didn't realize that I was in the making of a new mask. Brand new, shiny and ready for use now. And how I've been using it.

Before, telling others what was going on had become almost too much. And my brain seemed to recognize that because the mask began it's production. Now, it's here and doing it's job nearly perfectly. People are either choosing to believe me when I say, "I'm fine" or they just don't have the energy to argue. Little does anyone know, I feel myself going down even further and feel myself losing this battle inside my head. I feel all of this weight and pressure against my chest. I'm having increasing moments of confusion and twisted logic (that I usually realize is twisted after it's finally passed). At this point I just feel fake. Fake smile, fake interest, fake courtesy, fake motions and fake emotions.

At least I found my slogan, "I can't believe it's not Só leigheas!"

[Fuzzybear]

((((( So leigheas )))))

[MickeyCheeky]

I can relate. I often feel the need to wear a mask, too. I'm so sorry