Possible trigger:

I think I found hell
I think I found something
I think I found something in my TV screen
I think I found out that I have nothing
That I have nothing in this place for me
I watched it all in my head, perfect sense
They'll take me from my bed
Leave everything that is worth a single cent
And just take me instead
That TV show I saw as I fell asleep
Had me on both my knees
Praying to whatever is in heaven, please send me a felon
And don't let the police know

Anything, anything
Don't tell them anything
Anything, please
Anything, anything
Don't tell them anything
Anything, please, oh

I think I can tell
I think I can tell them
Tell them they were made for me
I'm thinking they'll know, know it already
I'm thinking they'll know just about everything
I bet they planned it all out like the shows
Went everywhere I go
Walked into the store right behind me
Stood in line right beside me and followed me to my home
I'm sure they figured it out, early on
That I would never run
That they could shoot but that's not fun
'Cause then they're killing their stolen son


Oh, anything, anything
Don't tell them anything
Anything, please
Anything, anything
Don't tell them anything
Anything, please
Anything, anything
Don't tell them anything
Anything, please
Anything, anything
Don't tell them anything
Anything, please, oh


We're going to die, die, down, die, die, down
We're going to die, die, down, die
We're going to die, die, down, die, die, down
We're going to die, die, down, die

Nobody can help me. My parents ruined my life. I cannot call them 'idiots' cause I have become intellectually disabled myself.

Possible trigger:

I just want someone to shoot me in the head.

Oh, and we're expecting invitation from Harvard to someone that doesn't know how to cross roads. Get over it, I am autistic and I pretend I am not. I can never be a person worthy of anyone's time, thanks to your overdoing academics.

I hate science. I sometimes wish I was a commerce student instead.

I am thinking about changing my stream next year. I am not made for science. "It was never meant to be", no, "It cannot be", yes.

[June55]

Find something that makes you happy

(((((Chemist)))))

[Thirty shades]

Thelonelychemist

[MtnTime2896]

Chem, I can't tell you things will get better or worse. I can't tell you your dreams are still able to be reached. I can't tell you anything I wish I could. What I can tell you is that you've helped me. I know it's not medicine but you did something else. You gave me a friend. It sounds corny, but I mean it. With how my mind works, my trust drifts away from those closest to me, yet here I'm safe. I'm safe because of members like you. You're a good friend Chem. I wish I could help more.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry, Chemist. Please, remember that you're a wonderful person

Mickey, you're an amazing person. Thanks for supporting me.

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Chem, I can't tell you things will get better or worse. I can't tell you your dreams are still able to be reached. I can't tell you anything I wish I could. What I can tell you is that you've helped me. I know it's not medicine but you did something else. You gave me a friend. It sounds corny, but I mean it. With how my mind works, my trust drifts away from those closest to me, yet here I'm safe. I'm safe because of members like you. You're a good friend Chem. I wish I could help more.

So, I am a goner. I cannot be helped. My psychiatrist thinks it's better to me ask minimum questions and I cannot describe it, he just wants me to think doctors don't and cannot help people like me so I don't end up in med school and end up hurting myself in the end. It's happening, it means I cannot be helped.


I know, I definitely can help people without being a doctor. But first I need to help myself, which is out of my control. It's an unreachable goal. But as my internist put it, "You can't always get what you want."

So, I thank you for supporting me since day 1. I remember when I was new to this forum and everyone looked at me with doubt and suspicion but you were one of the people that still gave me hugs. I appreciate that. If you weren't the (only) one to do so, I'd have left the forum. You should be feeling better, you're in the same situation as me. We all are like soldiers in the fight against diseases and disorders. I wanted to be a commander, but I am just a wounded soldier. Can I get promoted? Only if a miracle happens and my wound heals.

I am reminded of my late childhood and early teen years whenever I listen to High Hopes by Pink Floyd. It just makes me sad. I will never have friends.

Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some in a tide
At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world
Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we've been so many times


I am losing the control of my jaws and I hope it's ALS or Multiple Sclerosis. Just that I either die or stay in a hospital for the rest of my life. If it's MS I hope I lose some essential functions and get to get away from here.

I miss my friends.

(((((Chemist))))) you'll always have us on PC as friends

Thanks Whisper, best wishes to you. (((Whisper)))