This point of desperation....

Missed another appointment, like always. I can't stop crying, again. I've hardly eaten, again. I haven't taken my levothyroxine, again. I haven't showered, again. I haven't cleaned, again. I haven't had any water, again.

I managed to brush my teeth. That's my success today. Yeah, I know... it's pathetic.

My T can't see me anymore. My pdoc was done two weeks ago. Life's looking great guys and the sun is ****ing shining. Can you feel the sarcasm in text? I've never known.

I'm so sick of living this way. But no one can help. Hell, I can't even help.

Nothing's wrong with me. I'm just weak. Oh, so damn weak. How did I ever make it this far? And why did I?

I'm sorry I made some people here care. I shouldn't have done that to you. I'm sorry if you got attached to my mess.

This might be my last post. I'm a disease and need to be quarantined from everyone. I'll try to do that. I don't want to hurt anyone else anymore.

(((((((( So leigheas ))))))))

You’ve never hurt me. People here love you dear friend. You’re absolutely not a disease. Please stay safe

Só leigheas you are strong

I would miss you if you were not here...

The pain is unbearable...
Yet we all do get through each day

Much love to you, like Fuzzy says you have friends here

Hey Só leigheas,

You have nothing to apologize for at all because we're all in the same boat together friend. It's absolutely okay.

Do you like walking Só leigheas? Going to a place where nature is, animals, birds, water, etc., I find to be good - even in small ways - for my soul. Perhaps you could do something like that and then tell us how it went?

Yes, that'll be great! I'll be waiting to see how it goes.

(((Só leigheas)))

Oh, Só leigheas.

You've never hurt me either.

Please don't be sorry for having people care. Those of us who manage to respond are doing so because we are strong enough in that moment. .... And I've begged for help and been pitiful myself.


That part is okay. Please don't carry that burden too.

Pathetic? Sounds a lot like my "normal" (including the trigger content).
I'm "lucky" enough, though, that my depression is characterized by numbness and apathy.

Strength and peace to you, Só leigheas.

You don't bother me at all.You are doing just fine by expressing who you are.I am just like you that having the same situation.I think you are doing great.