[NYX78912]

I'm slipping away.
I'm losing time, I mean actually losing it. I sit down for a minute, I know the time, but I look again seconds later and 2 even 3 hours have just gone. They've just gone, like time went on and left me behind.
And I see his name everywhere. I'd never once seen it before I met him but now it's on TV, news reporters, music and film credits. Even in history study.
But now I'm seeing me too... I'm seeing my traits in strangers personalities and photo likenesses, but mostly I'm seeing my thoughts. Wrote down in reading material and online, through blogs and online chats. It's everywhere. I'm haunting myself, mocking myself.
Now I just don't engage in life. I don't talk to people because everything is a knock at me, I don't watch TV or listen to music because it's taunting me.
Im fading away and no one can see it because I've already made myself invisible.

But before I go, I just want to be seen one more time. I need to be seen, to know I really existed in the first place, because I just don't know anymore.

[Skeezyks]

Hello NYX: I believe this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central.

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest would be the coping with emotions forum. Here's a link to that one:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/coping-with-emotions/

And then here are links to 4 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that offer suggestions for what to do when you feel lost:

When You Feel Lost

When You Feel Lost or Disconnected from Yourself

Feeling Lost in Life: A Learning Opportunity

Feeling Lost? How to Find Yourself and Get Back on Track | Change Your Mind, Change Your Life

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.