[cryingontheinside]

I can't get away from them . i only remember negative things and they pop up in my memory almost constantly even when i think im feeling okay . the more memories i get popping up i start to have thoughts telling me to kill myself . how do i block these menories and why do i never remember good things ? I need to shut off from this . they shut off if im watching a movie but then they come back . i refuse to believe that i never had any good memories but my mind only lets me remember mistakes I've made or people that have hurt me . surely my whole life hasn't been one giant big mistake ? Surely there's something positive in my past . why wont my mind let me remember those things ? What should i do ?

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

I can't get away from them . i only remember negative things and they pop up in my memory almost constantly even when i think im feeling okay . the more memories i get popping up i start to have thoughts telling me to kill myself . how do i block these menories and why do i never remember good things ? I need to shut off from this . they shut off if im watching a movie but then they come back . i refuse to believe that i never had any good memories but my mind only lets me remember mistakes I've made or people that have hurt me . surely my whole life hasn't been one giant big mistake ? Surely there's something positive in my past . why wont my mind let me remember those things ? What should i do ?

I know exactly what you are talking about. I have the same thing happening. I will follow to see others idea to get rid of these. I did EMDR but tgey still come back.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by dancinglady

I know exactly what you are talking about. I have the same thing happening. I will follow to see others idea to get rid of these. I did EMDR but tgey still come back.

What is EMDR ? Thanks for your post

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

What is EMDR ? Thanks for your post

Eye movement desensitization r.....

If you just google EMDR it will explain it is a type of therapy.

[cryingontheinside]

Does anyone have any answers ? When you only remember bad stuff its hard to like yourself , its hard not to feel ashamed and wish you were dead . its hard to complete daily activities when this goes round in your head 24/7 . yes i can drown it out sometimes if i watch TV but that is not productive to do too much . i don't remember bad stuff on purpose . i try very hard to remember good things I've done or achieved , happy moments etc but they just seem to be blocked out .
I have thought about hypnotherapy . it worked on me before . it was along time ago now . I'm not sure if i can afford it just yet since i have gotten myself in debt . im open to any suggestions or ideas .