I'm Constantly Ignored

I've been trying to talk for a while. I've also told that to these boards a few times now. I've talked here plenty and have been mostly ignored, along with chat, and I don't even feel like saying that now matters. Here's what I think is going to happen: Those who actually read it will either be annoyed or will just ignore it all together because when it comes down to it, I whine too much. I'm a little *****.

Why have I whined so much on here? Well, people in my life will be a major aspect of my day when they get something out of it. I got a text from someone needing to talk, an old friend and someone I really care about, and I plan on trying to help if I can. A few weeks ago, I told the same friend I was having a hard time and I got the, "You'll be fine." And a few memes, then he just quit talking to me until now that he needs me.

If this were an isolated incident, fine. But it's ****ing not. I'm falling apart and I'm ****ing lucky if someone answers a ******* text of just me saying "What's up?" The only two people who even care to talk to me on a daily basis can't discuss the things going on with me. And it's not like I didn't try, they're both just too ****ing stoned to hear me.

And then, the other day, someone had the nerve to tell me, "You're being so quiet." ****. You. I've established that people care about your silence and then ignore you until you shut up, again. I've tried so hard to be there for people who wouldn't care if I was dying of thirst right in front of them.

This post will do nothing and I've simply wasted time. It's whatever, I wouldn't talk to me either.

I’ve never thought of you as “a whiner”

I’m certain I’ve been judged by some as “a whiner” or worse

Things have been **** here .... I care about you

You aren't a whiner.

I care about you, too. Thank you, you're always there when you can be, Fuzzy.

PS I’m often ignored too

I would miss you if you weren’t here

I’m sending hugs.

I would miss you if you were not here Só leigheas.

Many of us feel ignored at times,

I am also sending big hugs

Dear Só leigheas, your situation is so different from my own. I doubt my ability to comfort. I have absolutely no confidence in my ability to counsel. I am here as a fellow-sufferer and not as an aspiring lay therapist.

When you find a "hug" from me attached to a post of yours, it means I have actually read what you wrote and signal my attempt to compassionately notice you.

We used to talk a lot and haven't for a while. (More than a year, so bad). I am sorry about that. I have lost other IRL friends by not staying in touch. I have no close IRL friends other than my family. Sometimes I get way too distracted. I distract myself with drugs, music, work and I recently got obssessed about something that I can't let go of. Endless loop. So annoying. I have no time to go to my T until June but will discuss when I go.

Sure does sound like excuses. Sorry. I really do like you. I know how alone you are since your fiance broke up with you. Your complaints are valid. Forgive me.

AND SORRY for dumping my stuff on you. You did just say--people told you about their problems but then don't listen to you. I will try to listen a little better. I will start checking for your posts in the early AM (when I tend to be here ) FORGIVE ME PLEASE DEAR FRIEND!!!

You ARE loved here, Sò leigheas! You are certainly loved by me and by EVERYONE here on PC! Please NEVER give up hope! Try to HANG ON as much as you possibly CAN! We ALL appreciate you and you can talk here as much as you want! I hope you'll keep venting here! Even if you don't, that's perfectly ok and we'll ALL still TRULY love you for who you TRULY are! I'm just sos orry that you don't have anyone supporting you IRL at the moment! You TRULY don't deserve to be ignored or to be treated this HORRIBLY by ANYONE! Remember that we'll ALL always be here for you if you need ANYTHING AT ALL, my friend, and that of course you can PM me ANYTIME you want about EVERYTHING you want! You know I'll always be there for you! I PROMISE YOU THAT! Remember that you're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON and that YOU DO MATTER! Please keep repeating that to yourself because IT IS TRUE! YOU WILL GET OUT OF ALL OF THIS ONE WAY OR ANOTHER! You're a WONDERFUL person EXACTLY the way you and you don't need to CHANGE ANYTHING ABOUT YOURSELF! YOU'RE WONDERFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE, MY FRIEND! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE!!!!! Sending many hugs to you, Sò leigheas, my altruistic, dear, kind, generous, selfless, sweet, wise and WONDERFUL friend!!!!!

Well, it did get our attention and you deserve it but on the other hand, sometimes posting about our trouble is like pulling a scab off a wound!

I don't blame any of you and a lot of this was venting, and more so for rl than here.

Something else just set me off and triggered me really bad today. When I tried to talk about it, I was passed over and ignored, it was the final straw. I've handled the situation as best as I can and now I'm just trying to stay grounded and safe.

I should add that I reached out to someone and was able to talk about it. It helped some.

This means you need PC more than ever. Some days are so so painful.

I'm REALLY HAPPY that you're feeling a little better, Só leigheas, and that someone was able to help you a little bit! Of course we'll ALWAYS be here for you as well! I PROMISE YOU THAT! Just be kind to yourself, ok, my friend? YOU DESERVE IT! Just try to handle all of this like you've been doing so far! You're doing GREAT because you're trying YOUR BEST and that's all we humans can do, right? Please don't be so hard on yourself! We're all here for you, ok, my friend? Don't you EVER forget that! We'll ALWAYS be here for you! I PROMISE YOU THAT! You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON and you DESERVE to get better because you MATTER and you're a WONDERFUL HUMAN BEING! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL FO THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE!!!!! I'm so sorry you have to deal with ALL OF THIS, Só leigheas, my altruistic, BRAVE, caring, dear, selfless, strong, supportive, sweet, wise and WONDERFUL friend!!!!!

[I should add that I reached out to someone and was able to talk about it. It helped some.]

I'm so glad you found someone to listen, Só. I've been a member of the forum for about 6 months now, have read many of your posts, and have always had the impression that your burdens were pretty heavy. Many hugs to you (((( ))))

And by the way, it was solely to be able to respond accurately to your posts that I learned how to make an accent agué. How about that?

Só leigheas, I hope you know you can always reach out to me.

I am sorry to hear about your friend n can understand why that would bring up urges in you. It is good you have been able to talk to someone. Is that the only person you have for a support system in your offline life? You always have people here of course - and if I go off PC again, you can email me ❤.

Please don't ever feel ignored.

You are a very sweet n caring person I feel lucky to call "friend". I read each post I see of yours but if there is ever anything you just need a friend to speak to about - send me a PM or email. ❤