[Humpty Dumpty]

What should be a simple black and white line I have seen is often times blurred and out of focus.
Extreme hypothetical example: You are being held hostage. The hostage taker points a gun at you and says "You have 30 seconds to decide who the next I kill is or I will decide & kill 2 people. You can't decide, you can't handle the burden. So because you were not strong enough to decide they kill the person to your left and to your right. You weren't brave for not being able to make a choice so a choice was made for you.
Just because I am still here does not mean I am brave. I have not made the choice to live. I just haven't been able to make the choice to die.

Possible trigger:

every time I take a pill, even if it is simple OTC medicine that won't kill me I am tempted to take them all. I never do mainly because I'm too afraid to. I am not brave because I choose not to take. I am a coward because I can't make myself do it no matter how bad I want to. And please don't tell me not to do something I'll regret because it's too late for that. I regret not trying. There have been times when I was so close but I didn't. I regret that every day.

[Fuzzybear]

Humpty Dumpty