[Breez]

I don't even know why I'm here, to be honest...just a place to vent I guess, because it feels like no one "gets it".....I just feel like life has blown up in my face lately...this time last year, I was happy and everything was different.....I was in a relationship, we were talking about marriage, I thought my long-held wishes were finally coming true, things felt like they were going right for a change.....my life felt sunny. I was full of optimism.

It's so hard because that time feels both lightyears away and like it happened just yesterday, all at the same time. Sometimes I forget how much things have changed and when it hits me, it hits hard.....it's hard to talk to anyone about it. Things feel dark now. I just feel so empty, worthless, and hopeless. I know it will (hopefully) get better eventually, but there's this dark looming thought in the back of my mind saying, "But what if it doesn't?" Things don't feel the same anymore, things that used to make me happy don't have that same effect anymore, I'm indifferent about things I used to care about. It feels like someone turned the lights off.

I feel like an empty shell of the person I used to be. Like I said, I don't really know where I'm going with this post or why I'm doing this...I guess I just felt the need to share with people who might understand. I don't know.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Breez: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

[MickeyCheeky]

You're NOT worthless, @Breez, and I'm SO SORRY for what you're going through! Like you've already wisely said... yes, it DOES get better. Don't listen to that nasty voice in your head that makes you doubt that. It will. I'm sure of that! For that to happen, though, I feel like it's important for you to take GREAT care of yourself. Things CAN and WILL get better. Be sure of that! Feel free to share EVERYTHING that's on your mind here! You won't be judged. THAT'S A PROMISE! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME as well. I can listen to you and I'll try my best to offer Advice and Support to you and to get back at you as soon as I possibly can! Please keep writing if that helps! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Breez, and to ALL of your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF!

[Fuzzybear]

[Thirty shades]

Breez

[Breez]

Thanks for the love You're all very sweet and it's nice to "let it out", at least a little I will keep posting when I have the energy because it seems to be therapeutic, but right now I just feel drained mentally and emotionally

Hope you are all well I hope we all get to a point where we're posting success stories about overcoming depression!