[MatBell]

I don’t really have close friends. I had one, but we haven’t taked for many months now.
But I have a conplex relationship with people around me. Because of depression I’ve developed an oversensitivity and empathy which means I can be very kind and understanding with others. On the other hand I can get very aggressive and thibk the wordt of people I don’t even know. This is mostly when I don’t feel well and just feel bad about myself. I don’t like that side of me. I inagibe everyone around me is just going through their lives without a care in the world compared to what I’m feeling. I know it’s not true, but it’s still there.
Maybe I’ve become more cynical. Like with my sister, who I don’t talk to because she never was there for me or showed any care when I was at my worst.

[Fuzzybear]

I think many who have never been depressed don't understand... some people here do understand...

[Thirty shades]

Too many people don't understand what it is like to have depression.

Being kind and supportive doesn't seem to be what people want IRL. They view it as over friendly from people they don't know well enough.

They don't seem to be able to offer other people support either. I think they are too tied up with their own lives.

[Mopey]

Mat, I wonder if you've looked into the syndrome of Childhood Emotional Neglect, or CEN. I've just recently come across it and can relate emotionally to a lot of the consequences. I think you might be able to, as well, from things you've said in the past. There is an expert online, a Dr. Jonice Webb...

All good wishes and hugs to you, as always.....

[Fuzzybear]

Good posts Thirty shades and mopey.

Hugs and respect to all

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

The aggression sounds like a normal reaction. I'm very sorry you're suffering.

I've had periods where I was endlessly and rapidly moving from pain to anger to denial.

Then back to pain.

Pain is the worst of all, isn't it?

Moving into anger was the only way out of it.

(The anger couldn't be sustained for long, as it took a lot of energy. I'd go into denial again... )

I don't know if that's similar to your experiences?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

The aggression sounds like a normal reaction. I'm very sorry you're suffering.

I've had periods where I was endlessly and rapidly moving from pain to anger to denial.

Then back to pain.

Pain is the worst of all, isn't it?

Moving into anger was the only way out of it.

(The anger couldn't be sustained for long, as it took a lot of energy. I'd go into denial again... )

I don't know if that's similar to your experiences?

Good post