[Bookworm257]

I turning 18 in a month.

And I do not have what it takes to be an adult.

I'm good at writing, and I have a job right now, but I do not know how I will survive adulthood.

I don't know how to pay taxes, buy a home, or anything like that, but apart from that I don't think I could take care of myself.

I planned on going to a college to learn about programming and such so I could have a good career. But right now all I know is HTML, and I don't know if I'm smart enough to learn the other stuff. I suck at math (I was failing just a few weeks back), and I don't know if I can handle the pressure of college, along with having a job and trying to find a place to live as an adult.

I also think I'm kind of stupid, and I'm not sure I have the skills necessary to be who I want to be.

I don't think I will make it.

I feel useless and like a burden anyway, because my ADHD makes it so that I always inadvertently annoy others, forget things (even really important things), and I feel like I don't matter to the world around me at all.

I don't know what to do. I don't have what it takes at all.

I'm thinking I shouldn't be alive.

I don't want to live.

Thanks for listening, sorry for rambling but this site is like free therapy where I can just ramble to a bunch of non-judgemental people who will listen and understand.

[possum220]

Being an adult is overrated. I don’t think I ever grew up. Life is pretty much a day at a time. You work out what you want to do. Life grows in the direction of what you can achieve. Not everybody owns a house. Certainly not in these economic times. Looking at the “big picture” of life is overwhelming. Try just taking little bites. Nobody knows what adventures lay ahead.

[bpcyclist]

You don't have to figure out the rest of your life today. You just have to figure out what to do tomorrow. All that other crap will sort itself out. If you want to become a programmer, you don't have to take a full load of courses. Just start with one and build from there. You are young and have the rest of your life ahead of you. Don't give up. We care.