[Sunset-L]

I’m a lonely 52yr old female who’s never been married, no children. The only loving relationship I had is with my colleague who recently committed suicide and he’s gay. He was very depressed because he’s been battling cancer for the last 4 years, and now with this pandemic it got him more depressed which led him to suicide. I was very lonely for the last 5 years. I had no friends, the last friends I had stab me in the back. I’ve couldn’t even get a date, I always get rejected. I’m now living with my mother and sister whom I got no support. My mother is very abuse and very senile which is why I’m now saving up to get a place of my own which I should have done years ago. I’ve been mistreated by my family and by people for years. My recent boyfriend promised me he would marry me and put me as beneficiary, he promised me a lot of things which never happened. Now he’s gone and I’m very much alone again. I’m in deep depression. I hate my life; I hate this world. I’ll pray that I will be taken away from this world soon.

[mote.of.soul]

Aw, please hang in there, Sunset-L.

A lot of members in these forums will relate to the loneliness you feel. I certainly can. That's why logging onto PC has been, in many respects, a lifeline, away from loneliness.

Anyway, keep believing things will change Sunset-L, and I appreciated reading your post. I empathized with it. Stay in the world for a while longer and see what happens.

[Fuzzybear]