Is there something wrong with me?

Hi, I'm new here!!

I'm not sure if there's something wrong with me. I feel like I'm just pretending to be mentally ill, but in reality I might be fine. I know that there are people who have it so much worse than I do (and my heart goes out to all of them). I just feel like something is wrong with me. Like sometimes I feel like my emotions are just fake, sometimes I don't even feel anything and lately I've been crying a lot for stupid reasons. I'm easily angered (very easily) but I don't show it much. Sometimes I feel normal but the next minute I feel empty (idk). I don't cut, but when I'm angry I punch my tighs or ill squeeze them and just lash out on something. I'm not suicidal, but I really want to get out of here. I'm not sure if this is all in my head or if something is wrong with me. I feel like if I seek professional help, I might just get mocked at. Like I genuinely think I making it all up. I told my mom about this a couple years back but she uses it against me. I don't do much at home, I really don't have the energy to (Im lazy and a burden, I know). Good lord, I am ranting hahahahah. I'm just so confused. I don't understand, idk if I'm depressed or if I'm fine and just having a bad day. I just wanna know if someone feels the same way and some insights. Thank you and I hope yall have a nice day ahead.

If you decide to get professional help, a therapist can potentially help with you figure out what is wrong and coach you to manage your life better. Therapists work with all levels of issues. What you described are perfectly reasonable concerns and your emotions are not fake. They are there because you are feeling something deeply.

Welcome to the site! I'm glad you joined and hope you find this community helpful in figuring it out. It has been helpful to me.

I agree with this. It's also important to note that therapists aren't going to judge you for feeling what you feel. Your feelings are always valid, however extreme or unreasonable they may feel. You don't have to have an awful life to be entitled to awful thoughts and emotions. You don't have to be struggling to feel pain. It's important that you be kind to yourself and give yourself permission to feel this way.

If you do feel off or out of sorts that's probably accurate. The cause is undetermined right now, but seeking out professional help may be able to offer support and direction. I'd definitely suggest educating yourself on depression or checking out self help resources online or books from the library. A general feeling of being unwell or unhappy isn't always depression, though, and it could be a variety of other things. That's why I'd suggest seeing a professional to sort through things. The sooner you get to start processing these issues the sooner you can work on taking charge of what you want to do to manage them. Good luck!