[Capac]

The depression is so severe that it is scaring me. I am concerned about how bad I am getting. And I feel so isolated like I am going through this all by myself; nobody understand or cares. This is hell and I feel scared, despondent, useless, worthless, and like I'm already dead, like I'm not human anymore.

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear Capac, I know what you're going through! I was clinically depressed some years back. It was excruciating. My heart was going through a meat grinder. And I was terrified of everything. Much more. So many things. Fortunately I had very good therapy, in various ways. It took time to get well. Many of us here have very difficult & sad histories. We get better. Slip sometimes. We learn as time goes on. And here, we are not alone. We help each other. I hope you will stay here, find forums you like, make some friends. I know it's hard to do anything when it's this bad.
Good luck to you!

I hope you start feeling better soon.

what distractions (positive distractions) do you have?

[Capac]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I hope you start feeling better soon.

what distractions (positive distractions) do you have?

Thanks. I talk to people and watch tv. Everything else I usually enjoy doesn’t work when I’m extremely depressed and isolated.

[Deilla]

I'm sorry things feel so difficult right now. We care. I hope you feel better soon. Distractions are good. If watching TV helps, then yea, do that. Keep talking here. We're listening and we understand.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Dear Capac, I know what you're going through! I was clinically depressed some years back. It was excruciating. My heart was going through a meat grinder. And I was terrified of everything. Much more. So many things. Fortunately I had very good therapy, in various ways. It took time to get well. Many of us here have very difficult & sad histories. We get better. Slip sometimes. We learn as time goes on. And here, we are not alone. We help each other. I hope you will stay here, find forums you like, make some friends. I know it's hard to do anything when it's this bad.
Good luck to you!

Good post. People here care and know the feelings you are experiencing

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Capac

The depression is so severe that it is scaring me. I am concerned about how bad I am getting. And I feel so isolated like I am going through this all by myself; nobody understand or cares. This is hell and I feel scared, despondent, useless, worthless, and like I'm already dead, like I'm not human anymore.

I understand how you feel because I feel like this all the time.