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Grand Poohbah
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#21
Except at some of the dreadful high school dances I attended (I can't dance well at all), I never thought of myself as socially anxious because I was talkative in my classes (liked to participate) but always had a very small group of friends in hs and college. Given that my current situation is that my husband is my only close friend, I do think I have have anxiety about different things that makes me feel like a misfit. For example, when I put out the trash earlier this week and my neighbor across the street showed me his new flag and flag pole enthusiastically, I agreed it looked great but felt extremely self conscious (making me very quiet) about my hair loss (though I wear a hat when I go outside). Before that, for the longest time I felt uncomfortable talking to people in the neighborhood because of my 2015 attempt where fire trucks, ambulances, and many police cars came. That 2015 attempt still makes me feel like I have a serious mental illness (and ever since I manage my mental illness daily) which makes me feel like a misfit.
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#22
I was not aware of having depression before my late 30’s, though a series of events did happen that brought me down. The bad elementary school, bully experience, unrequited crushes on boys throughout middle-high school, love triangles in my early 20’s. But, the great majority of all those times had lots of good times and friends.
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#23
Nothing much changes for me from one day to the next... same old, same old. It's colder today than it was yesterday as well as overcast. I smell like a baby...
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#24
I used to use baby powder Papa bear and I were talking about buying a ''lead''... for something. I do not think we will purchase that item. Maybe another teddy bear instead
Sorry about the ''silly'' post. I haven't been feeling down most of the day. Just my usual grrrrrrness. I have to eat some cereal (I do not like shredded wheat or sugarless Alpen, I find them boring and tasteless especially since I usually still try to only eat on one side of my mouth then I have to clean my fangs. I try to avoid mornings I'm late, I don't think I will have much sleep hugs and respect to all __________________ Last edited by Fuzzybear; Oct 31, 2020 at 12:27 AM.. |
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Yesterday was vacuuming day. Every Saturday (or sometimes Friday) I vacuum our townhome unit. It takes me a couple of hours or so. Once I'm done, I'm always wasted. And it takes me a day or two to recover. So today my legs feel sort-of like Jello. Still I did take our pooch for a nice walk early this afternoon. It was sunny but there was a cold breeze.
Actually I like shredded wheat. I have cereal for breakfast pretty-much every morning with either banana or some variety of berry. I also like Wheat Chex, Grape Nuts, & Quaker Oatmeal Squares. Oatmeal Squares are pre-sweetened. But, on the others, I sprinkle brown sugar to sweeten my grumpy personality... |
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#26
I've been going up & down. I'm stronger for a while, which feels encouraging, & I'm even happy & I make plans about things I need to do & feel enthusiastic, then unhappiness happens & I get depressed, really sad, & I can't seem to do anything, & I feel so ashamed of myself. I owe a lot of people an apology & I feel so bad. I just wish so much that I could find the right therapist for me & wouldn't need to take meds with side effects. It's ok. I'm not like this all the time. I don't need to be in a hospital. I handle it pretty good on my own. I just keep hoping.
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#27
^ I notice what I think are a lot of harsh self judgments in the post above. I also think a good therapist could help. @Breaking Dawn
Have you read Feeling Good by Burns? I have found this book more helpful (CBT) than any CBT (or other) therapist I had found in this forest irl Grrrrrrr (edited) meds with side effects (in my case I have had additional severe allergic reactions grrr so it's not an option for me anyway aside from benzos __________________ |
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#28
Thank you @Fuzzybear! Yes, I had good CBT training years ago; have & love the book & have recommended it to others & use its principles the best I can. I am recognizing lately though that I need therapy again, mainly because of the voices, & probably dissociation, & possibly DID.
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#29
Feeling ok today, ran some errands. Just feeling sad and lonely sometimes, but difficult to socialize now. Took my dog for a walk this weekend and it was a lovely fall day with the sun shining and beautiful fall colors outside.
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#30
Quite a nice day here today... still chilly... but a lot warmer than it has been & sunny. Most of the leaves are gone from our trees at this point. We took our doggie to 2 pet shops today. Then my wife did some grocery shopping. While she was in the grocery store I took our pooch for a little walk down the street. It was nice.
I posted a tread in the Seniors forum regarding "sundown syndrome". I have some daily experiences that seem, to me, to be similar to this. One aspect of it, among others, is experiencing a noticeable increase in my level of anxiety. It generally hits around 4:30 or 5 PM. It's 3:40 PM as I write this & I think I can already feel it beginning to creep in. |
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Hi, @Skeezyks, I was just wondering, could you maybe have a little bit of SAD/seasonal affective disorder? Like when the sun goes down you start to get symptoms & some part of you is kind of unhappy about this change? By the way, I have some problems with decreased sunlight myself, so I thought of that possibility.
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Not much going on here today. We'll be taking our pooch for a nice walk in the sunshine early this afternoon. That's about it. Hugs to all misfits! |
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I thought some here might like this (I do )
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#36
I either wake now in the middle of the night or make it through to morning. I always wake with anxiety from the relationships gone bad and worry. I feel so alone while I am blessed with others, but mostly they don’t help me. I’ve been so depressed for so long it’s become my personality. This waking trauma started at least ten years ago.
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#38
Just wishing the end were near today. It doesn't appear to be anywhere in sight.
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#39
Dear God, please let them know how important they are, for themselves, & for each other! And thank you, God, for them because they are helping me!
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Much love to all
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