winter4me

I am haunted by a repetitive nightmare from childhood, at times. And today, 68, I feel as if I am ever on the edge of things, looking in...even when (even more?) with my children and grandchildren. What I feel does not match the actual experience---what is is better than what I feel---but right now, for a while anyway I haven't been able to get out of the thought-eddy for any amount of time...I never fit in anywhere, even when I was considered an asset and a friend, even then there was something 'different'. Lately, I am sad with the banality of my dreams...they used to be interesting, comforting...
(minus the nightmare) ...now anxieties and regrets play out, nothing dramatic just sad I wish I was my cat right now, chasing its tail, grooming. I say that but doubt I mean it. It feels sad but better than not to vent...

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/ the bones of that word mend slowly...' marie harris

Deilla

It's the end of my day. I've had a good day but now I feel sad because the sun is going down and I am getting tired. I dread tomorrow. I'm not sure I'm ready for bed but sleeping will help me feel better.

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“If you don’t like something, change it; if you can’t change it, change the way you think about it.” — Mary Engelbreit

When you change the way you look at the world, the world changes.

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Breaking Dawn

I was feeling very depressed this morning, & also very anxious, but all that faded away when I got engrossed in some things that I was wondering about & ended up researching, via the internet. I have always loved school! So I think this is a good mechanism for me when I'm having a problem.

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"Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot)

"Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller)

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Deilla

Today has been stressful. I'm almost in tears. I've been working on putting new sheets on my bed. I'm trying to get the mattress cover on. I had to wash it. I put one half on after trying to get the right end, and I was exhausted. I have to keep working at this and fight through the pain. It upsets me that simple things like this hurt so much.

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“If you don’t like something, change it; if you can’t change it, change the way you think about it.” — Mary Engelbreit

When you change the way you look at the world, the world changes.

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Skeezyks

Cleaning day again today. So now I'm pooped... as usual. Otherwise not too bad. Everything just is what it is. Hope all the misfits are well...

Breaking Dawn

A little bit low.

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"Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot)

"Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller)

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Skeezyks

Walked over to the pharmacy today where I get my med's. Also picked up a couple of additional things. It's all really a no-brainer. But I get so anxious & confused doing it. It's difficult to keep track of what I'm doing. When I first started making these monthly trips I kind-of enjoyed getting out, I so seldom leave home especially alone. But lately not so much...

Breaking Dawn

Thank you so very much, @Skeezyks, for the above post! It's not only interesting, it's very helpful, at least for me.

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"Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot)

"Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller)

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Skeezyks

Deilla

I think I feel bad because I am tired. I did a lot of work today. I was having fun for the most part. I may have worked longer than I should have. Some iced coffee and a game will help me feel better.

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“If you don’t like something, change it; if you can’t change it, change the way you think about it.” — Mary Engelbreit

When you change the way you look at the world, the world changes.

My Personal Blog - The Empowered Finger Writes