Reflecting on myself

I look at myself and all I see is fat and mistakes. I look at the things I've done and see nothing but garbage. I haven't put enough effort into making anything good and that's my fault. I haven't been nice enough or caring enough to really be able to call myself a nice person. I've never been particularly bright so I could never call myself smart. The things I thought I was good at, I'm not. Mediocre at things at best. I'm an ugly, unlovable, stupid, useless person and I can't stand living with me anymore.

Dear rise13eyond, Hearing you talk this way to yourself makes me feel sad. Something or someone has put these thoughts into your mind. No one is perfect. Everyone has made mistakes. You are important. You will find your way eventually. I myself have been a late bloomer in so many ways. I have had zero self esteem with severe depression. Maybe you could try googling about cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT)? Just to help pull you out of this deep, dark, cruel hole you're in. Please, will you try? You don't know yet how important you are! Hugs & lots of love to you!!

I also think someone... or some Thing (?) has put these thoughts into your head. Abusers have said most of those same things to me. I do not believe ANY of those things are true. I hope you can realise the TRUTH, that you are worthwhile and so much more

CBT or other therapy would help. There are also some good books out which could replace the need for a therapist. Much love to you

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NO! Stop that self-talk! Start in small and give yourself a hug, two hugs tomorrow, then three and so on.

One step at the time! Google self worth and how to build it!

None of those things are true! Everyone has Value and you're no exception! Please do be kinder to yourself and take baby steps to work on your self-image like the other wise and wonderful posters have suggested! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @rise13eyond, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for the support and kind words, I've been having a rough time lately, it means a lot.

Thank you very much, @rise13eyond, for your reply. I hope things start getting better for you very soon.