Confessions of little turtle with love #6

i just listened to richard kiley singing-------
THE IMPOSSIBLE DREAM

I still have hope

i have my valium in the closet...
i nave my celexa on the top shelf...
i am thinking about medical marijuana...

is it possible to make it thru this life without a little help...
i am so screwed up ...how can i possibly live without some drug or medicine..

Hmmm...?
Considering just the non-screwed-up, what percentage of them make it through life without some drug, some medicine, some substance, some activity, some...thing?

another confession-----i am known as the clown psychiatrist...

Much love to you little turtle and to all on the AS IS bus

Today, I have been advised, to get out of my own way?

I am not supposed to think....

So I have had a glass of wine.

Hmmm...?

I hope you thoroughly enjoyed the wine, dear Thirty shades.

I mistrust my own thinking.
But, I also mistrust the thinking of others.
Those who think the most of their own thinking are suspicious.

yes yes yes

I am not well, struggling with severe depression, tiredness, panic attacks and physical pain. I am drowsy the whole day, can't drag myself out of bed before the evening.
Little turtle and others, did you ever have to face these? If you did, how did you overcome them? If you could please please tell me a little about your struggles I may feel a little hopeful. You are survivors. At times I feel I can't go on any more. I feel terribly lonely and hopeless. My pdoc won't give me an AD. Currently im on amisulpride and xanax and thyronorm.
Much love to all on the AS IS bus.

Hello, MimiBhaduri!

severe depression: yes; no antidepressant medication has ever given me significant relief; in my case, a benzodiazepine medication (similar to your xanax) has been more helpful
tiredness: yes; in my case, tiredness seems to be "multifactorial" -- circadian rhythm disordering, medication side effects, an autoimmune disorder, etc. (It may be a rather good thing you are taking thyronorm.)
panic attacks: no, not really; I am, however, subject to "episodes" where anxiety plays a role
persistent drowsiness: not exactly; in my case I'd call it persistent but erratic drowsiness that interferes with normal daily activities
pain: no, not chronic physical pain

I did live a fairly functional life up until a point. Over time it became more and more difficult to do less and less.

You are taking thyronorm. Taking that medication may be an indication your depression does not exist in a medical vacuum; your situation is probably a product of both body and brain. Unfortunately, it is my experience that once a person has a mental health diagnosis, medical personnel (and family/friends) tend to read all symptoms in the singular light of such a diagnosis and ignore other possibilities.
Do you find you have more energy at night, or even after midnight? (No need to answer.)

Good post Much love to all on the AS IS BUS

Thank you for replying rohag.

You are taking thyronorm. Taking that medication may be an indication your depression does not exist in a medical vacuum; your situation is probably a product of both body and brain. Unfortunately, it is my experience that once a person has a mental health diagnosis, medical personnel (and family/friends) tend to read all symptoms in the singular light of such a diagnosis and ignore other possibilities.

I suffer from hypothyroidism, so i take thyronorm. What you say is very true. They incl the pdocs say that all my symptoms incl my chronic pain are bc of my psychosis.

Do you find you have more energy at night, or even after midnight? (No need to answer.)

More energy in the eve till about 12 midnight. I start feeling drowsy again after midnight if i don't drink coffee.

Thank you for your reply!
Questions to consider:
What time do you usually go to bed and naturally fall asleep?
Have you or your doctors or family tried to "force" you into a "normal" sleep-wake schedule?
Does straying from the schedule you now have adversely affect your psychosis? (If I stray from my schedule, I know from experience it adversely affects my anxiety.)

rohag you are super...what really helpful talk here...


mimi---what do you think about the MAD IN AMERICA website..

have you watched what dr dean ornish has to say about eating...

have you tried meditation and yoga...

are you familiar with lifestyle medicine....

MIMI ......there is also a MAD IN THE UK...

Thank you dear Rohag.

I very much enjoyed my wine.

I would love to be able to stop thinking but my sub conscious can be very chatty and negative. The wine helps me relax.

Maybe that person needs to be... What a dumb thing they said, and that is supposed to be ''helpful''... (re should get out of own way ...

We are not supposed to think?

I'm very happy you enjoyed your wine

Much love to you dear Thirty shades and to all on the AS IS bus

If we are to give up thinking,,,, Will be cease to exist?

Thank you for being here dear Fuzzybear

Thank you for being here to all those on the As Is bus.