Confessions of little turtle with love #6

Much love and respect to all on the AS IS BUS

I was wondering, little turtle, if you could share any music that has helped you/you find pleasant/interesting/relatable/etc.

Or anyone else on the AS IS bus.

(I think I discussed this with a couple of people here once before, not here on the bus though, in pm)

Much love to all



PS I nearly contacted a group of therapists a few weeks ago. My mood dipped so much though, many more intrusive and scary thoughts etc.... that I changed my mind.

oh those thoughts...i die and go crazy plenty

fuzzy how about LOVE STORY...andy williams

“A horse with no name”

America

It felt good to be out of the rain….

All on the AS IS bus

Thanks for being one of the ''good guys'' dear little turtle

Good song Thirty shades

Most of the music I still find at least partially uplifting is music I enjoyed before depression overwhelmed my life. It's a mixed bag.

rohag...what was the cause of your depression...
you are a very interesting person..

Hugs and much respect to you dear Rohag

Good post dear little turtle. You and Rohag are both very interesting people..

Much love to all on the AS IS BUS

Much love and respect to you, and to your inner cub, snake and

You're always welcome in my song thread I'm trying to find more songs that are relatable etc.

I don't know. I speculate multiple, overlapping issues are behind my depression+anxiety.

• early socialization
• possible family predisposition
• work-related circadian stresses
• a long-undiagnosed autoimmune condition with possible neurological effects

That's my speculation in a nutshell. I've had many medical folks treat me, and, basically, they haven't been -- or couldn't be -- interested in causes. They're all about alleviating symptoms.

Good post. I've found similar, medical folks have not been - or couldn't be - interested in causes.

little turtle is one of the exceptions, it must be very hard to ''survive'' as a medic in that field for decades... if sensitive and compassionate.. so much suffering

Like you Rohag, when I was very young, I was ''impressed'' by those who are/were ''very intelligent''..... like the PU (Paternal Unit)..... shame he was NOT Emotionally Intelligent

Now I value kindness more than someone who claims they are a VIP like he did ( a very important person and way too Superior to have a ''bear cub'' like me.....

actually I did ONCE read a very sad letter he had penned. Occasionally, very occasionally, he would be ''kind''... in WRITING but not spoken words...

the words said

''you and your beautiful baby are too good for me''

he was at the time of my birth having one of his MANY affairs.....

He did not stop having affairs...

the Maternal Unit was ''disappointed'' in me when I was born

She stopped ''pushing'' me out of the womb

She put me on tranquilisers (prescribed by a doctor) at age NINE MONTHS

''because I ''kept'' crying''

when she was trying to wean me...

I was taken OUT OF NAPPIES

at age ONE

''because I had a fat tummy''

I was such a ''disappointment'' to the covert Narcissist the Maternal Unit and the grandiose N the Paternal Unit

Do not even get me started on the Step Maternal Unit

It could possibly be... that the ''nice'' member of the family becomes the scapegoat, I don't think I was the ''terrible'' person that all that ''family'' including a poisonous aunt or two thought I was...

Why oh why did I post all that...

Much love to all those who have ears and listen without too many mean and inaccurate judgments (as my PUS - parental units did over decades)

we are all on a good bus------AS IS

Thank you for sharing dear Fuzzybear.

Grrrrrrrrrrrr

Much love and respect to all who are true

Thank you for being here on the AS IS BUS dear Rohag