Male 45 divorced living in Tokyo

Dear Friends,

Thank you for your kind messages of wisdom. Somehow your words encourage me to keep fighting. I live in Japan and if you guys check you will see that father alienation is common, snd though there are visitation rights I have to take to court to get them. And I have done this and gone to court but my ex never shows up and the court can’t ultimately force my ex , and I got tired of paying expensive lawyers when that money I could have been adding it to the kids trust. But I gave it a shot with lawyers. I need to find a better lawyer, but in the mid o things several things happened COVIT, since I’m a freelance consultant I lost projects and had to survive on jobs and on less, I’m a PR in Japan but not really a J national so also the fact one is foreign one needs to be careful not to come across as stalker of any kind or give ammunition to them to use against me.
Life has not been kind my friends, but I should focus on positive, I have now good jobs and getting myself better in some areas, but not lying to you alcohol is becoming an issue for me. May be the piled up stress, trauma, my anxiety and depression. I managed to stay without alcohol since 2015 until few months ago , I think need to stop it and but not as easy.
I live my life like an open book as you may see, but I am grateful for you guys , your responses made this month or year better. I wished I reached out earlier.
Thank you , god bless you.

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Hi Captain Neo,
Sorry to hear about your personal struggles. I just wanted to let you know that you might be able to find someone to talk to. I googled AA meetings in Tokyo(aatokyo.org), where you might find some support. There seems to be a good # of meetings. Maybe you could try this? and just listen to others and see if anything the people are saying resonates with you in regards to your issue w/alcohol. I hope your doing okay and please take good care of yourself.

Dear friend, thank you so much for your advise. I will reach out to the group and go to the meeting see if it works. Appreciate this very much . It means a lot to me since I feel like a lone wolf but with you guys I feel member of a pack and that matters so much to me. I am also RC so I believe in God and still have Faith

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My Dear Friends,
I turned
years old and just wa tend to check in with you. I am still struggling but putting up a fight. Now it has been
years since I saw my daughters last and is breaking me inside, now I live with someone who was at the beginning I thought a good partner but has turned to be an abuser and harraser. Brings the sadness in me, takes what little joy I have left in me. See I was very unlucky and I don’t know what was best because I fell ill and had nobody she offered to sustain me financially for a bit but that turned out to be a nightmare in the end as she has asked me for more and more and manipulates me every chance she has. I wished I just went bankrupt and started again on my own but she has been a horrible advisor and companion. But I don’t know what to do …. My other mental issues continue and is all too much … so much I am afraid about what I end up doing to my self. Also the holidays are close and every time the heart and spirit takes a hit as I am utterly alone.
Sorry dear friends for this message . This is me…
I do wish you all always the best of what life can give you
Sincerely
EO

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