[Rose76]

I'm still struggling with an episode of depression that started 1/19. I'm improved compared to before yesterday. Still, I feel like everything's a struggle.

[susannahsays]

Feeling down. I'm so tired of being tired. Tired as in everything feels like it takes a monumental effort.

I don't feel ready to start my day. I need to get started on work and take a shower. My hair is very tangled. I also need to do laundry and clean my kitchen before my psychiatrist appointment at 3:30pm.

Sad, sad, sad. I feel lonely but I also really don't want to interact with anyone because it takes too much effort.

At a loss.

[Yzen]

I have too many thoughts in my head and just want to stop and get away and rest. I finally made an appointment with my regular therapist for this week. I haven't talked to her in over a year. I've been using an online therapy service and it isn't the same.

[Rose76]

Already I feel so bad.

[3rd rock]

Beginning to pile up rejections for my novel.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

Beginning to pile up rejections for my novel.

I googled "famous books that publishers rejected" & I got very surprising answers that should encourage you. I hope you will google about it.

[will19]

Been feeling blah today. I feel like I should feel very joyous with what I have going for me, but I don't. I guess it's because I'm clouding my mind about the "what if's" for the future, like it's pretty nice now and it's going to be bad later on.

I've had an off and on headache all day. I've had those before. A friend of mine maybe facing surgery pretty soon and I hope it goes well. He's very old so it might be risky for him. I think about what could happen to him and possibly with him passing away. I would miss him, but I feel like he's not the very best friend to have. Perhaps I'll miss him because he's all that I have.

[Rose76]

This is the most depressed I've been in the last 16 months. I cry often. I'm wasting so much time that I could put to some use.

I keep trying to figure out a solution. I come up with nothing I can believe in.

[regretful]

Reluctantly, still taking a small dose of lexapro; seems to be helping a bit. Still depressed. Wishing all of you well with your personal battle against this invisible monster.

[Rose76]

Last night I slept better than I have in a while. Mentally, I'm starting to feel less depressed.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Last night I slept better than I have in a while. Mentally, I'm starting to feel less depressed.

I'm glad for you, Rose!

[Mountaindewed]

I am far from where I was last year at this time. But the start of January until the start of spring always makes me feel crappy even with my birthday mixed in there. The 31st of January until Febuary 6th are especially depressing. My therapist helped me out a lot today though. I think I'm just tired right now. I do have to heavily think about going back to work very soon. My bills are piling up and I have not even gotten all my medical bills and I have another test coming up.

[Deilla]

I have work now. I'm glad. It's keeping me busy.

[Rose76]

I see I'm not the only one who nose-dives post holiday till the buds are on the trees. And I have a Jan birthday too. Good luck coping with that - Mountaindewed.

In the past 36 hours I've slept 5.

[will19]

Been feeling up and down throughout the days. I have a dental appointment next week for a procedure and I'm not looking forward to it.

Around six months ago, I made it a goal for myself to leave the area where I live in April. It's only a couple of months away and feel far from ready to make any kind of move. I know I should make a move but I'm feeling perplexed about it. And it gets me down a whole lot with depression and anxiety.

[Rose76]

I'm still in a weird state. I've sat for hours now, mostly just thinking.

[Rose76]

I'm having a bad night.

[will19]

Kind of took easy today instead of going on a long bike ride like I do on Sundays. I'll go on an hour ride instead later on today. Did some odds and ends at my place to keep me busy. I felt guilty that I didn't take that long bike ride today. I just didn't feel like it. I don't know if its just me but it seems like lately it's getting worse with traffic while bike riding. So many times I felt like I had some close calls in collisions. The drivers are just getting bad. It makes bike riding unappealing.

Also, I was planning on doing my income tax returns this afternoon but I didn't get my W-2 yet. I was upset about that because I preferred to do the taxes today instead of the bike riding.

[Rose76]

Never slept last nite. Ran out of Vicodin. Slight withdrawal symptoms. I'm sore. Yawning because I've not slept. Not too depressed, but kind of discouraged.

[hvert]

I'm feeling the cabin fever right now.