[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by T4bbyCat

I wish I had teleportation ability so I could buy a cheap(er) place in the country and get to work that way instead of driving. On the other hand, if I had teleportation ability, I think I'd be doing other things anyway.

Thank you for this to think about. I enjoy these kinds of thoughts.

[Rose76]

I got very out of breath just walking from my car to the store entrance, even though I was parked close. It was hot, and I felt like the heat was making me awful weak. All I want to do is sit in my recliner or lie in bed. I know I'm seriously anemic, but I also think I'm depressed. I can't seem to make myself do much. I don't know how to snap out of this funk.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I got very out of breath just walking from my car to the store entrance, even though I was parked close. It was hot, and I felt like the heat was making me awful weak. All I want to do is sit in my recliner or lie in bed. I know I'm seriously anemic, but I also think I'm depressed. I can't seem to make myself do much. I don't know how to snap out of this funk.

I'm sorry it's like this, @Rose76. And I can relate

[Rose76]

Very depressed. Nothing to look forward to. Disappointed that I'm not getting better medical care for my anemia. A friend picked a stupid fight with me that has ended a 20 year friendship. A sister stopped staying in touch with me right when I was awful sick. Then there's the heat.

This being in the dumps has gone on for too many days.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Very depressed. Nothing to look forward to. Disappointed that I'm not getting better medical care for my anemia. A friend picked a stupid fight with me that has ended a 20 year friendship. A sister stopped staying in touch with me right when I was awful sick. Then there's the heat.

Hopefully, the bridge isn't burned with your friend, but I know the feeling: Even knowing someone for almost 20 years is no guarantee you really know them, as happened in my case. But you can often mend it after a little time.

Little to look forward to as well, except I need to get on the ball with finding a place to live before I'm kicked out onto the street. Hard when it's tough to get the motivation to do anything.

[Rose76]

Thanks T4bbyCat. Worrying about having shelter has got to be a terrible source of stress. I hope you soon find something you like.

I'm still dragging myself around. Trying to clean the kitchen right now. I'm using a timer for motivation. I alternate 8 minutes of work with 10 minutes of rest/reading. It's not like I'm sick. I just don't feel like getting out of the recliner.

Well, the timer buzzed. I better get up.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Thanks T4bbyCat. Worrying about having shelter has got to be a terrible source of stress. I hope you soon find something you like.

I'm still dragging myself around. Trying to clean the kitchen right now. I'm using a timer for motivation. I alternate 8 minutes of work with 10 minutes of rest/reading. It's not like I'm sick. I just don't feel like getting out of the recliner.

Well, the timer buzzed. I better get up.

God bless our friendships! We need each other!

[3rd rock]

I am advised that my novel is good but the choice of subject matter makes it unpublishable.

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I am advised that my novel is good but the choice of subject matter makes it unpublishable.

What is the subject matter if you don't mind my asking?

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

What is the subject matter if you don't mind my asking?

In brief, it's a literary novel about a young man who has an affair with one of his teachers.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

In brief, it's a literary novel about a young man who has an affair with one of his teachers.

I am 100% certain that there is a fanship/category of readers who look for this type of novel. So you maybe need to find a publisher who sells to those types of readers?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I am advised that my novel is good but the choice of subject matter makes it unpublishable.

I was also curious about the subject matter of the novel.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

God bless our friendships! We need each other!

I need you my friend ...

Just being a bit ''silly''

I am NOT ''overly needy'' and anyone who makes such inane and stupid judgments needs to take a flying leap AWAY from me, and find some other low lives to hang out with.

(not about anyone on msf... a couple of Malignant Narcissists said that and a bunch of other stupid, mean things about me, years ago. And YES I KNOW... I'm ''too sensitive''...

Respect and hugs to all here

[Open Eyes]

My depression has been so severe that I really don’t want to wake up anymore.

I just can’t witness yet another mental decline. Just too many years of this 😢

I could hang out in the grief forum too. A lot of days I sit and cry and sleep. I wake up in the middle of the night and sit and cry.

I am so tired, it’s too much.

[Deilla]

Overall, I am down. My client is 6 days late paying me. I contacted him about it yesterday, but he never replied. I asked if he had the money to pay us. Sometimes he doesn't. I've not been working this week. I refuse to work without pay. So it's been a bit boring. But I am trying to do things. I've cried a lot and canceled medical appointments so I could have money for food. If this keeps up, I will have to go to the food bank.

[Fuzzybear]

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In a lot of pain.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Thank you for this to think about. I enjoy these kinds of thoughts.

How are you doing Breaking Dawn? I hope you're ok. Or if not ok, that you're safe. Thanks and much respect for being so supportive to all here. That makes you special. I send you love

[Rose76]

I'm doing a bit better today. I have to go get blood drawn to check on the anemia. I feel kind of weak when I stand. Maybe it's just the heat and being deconditioned. But my slow GI bleed might be acting up.

One year ago, I had no idea I was leaking blood, until one day when I could hardly carry in a few bags of groceries. Got in the front door and had to sit and rest before I could put them away. So I went to the ER, where blood work showed severe anemia. Got admitted and was given a transfusion of red blood cells. Wow! Right after that I could walk up and down the hallway normally. You'ld think you would know if you were having a GI bleed. If it is happening slowly enough, there are no symptoms. You would never realize it, until you develop "restless leg syndrome," or you suddenly can't stand very long or walk very far. While sitting, I felt perfectly fine. Past few days, I keep wanting to sit down. I tell myself it could be the heat, but . . . . .

I have someone coming tomorrow who I'm paying to help me clean the house. I have to be able to work with her. A lot of stuff has to be organized, which I can't just delegate. So I hope I'll be up to it. Once I get my place straightened out, I know I'll feel far less depressed.

If the labs show worsening anemia, they'll schedule me to get I/V iron. That also will make me feel better physically and mentally. So I feel hopeful now that whatever is wrong in my life can be fixed. On that note, I better get up and make the most of today.

[Deilla]

I felt better today. I got paid finally and I went for a long walk in the park. First time I've done that in ages. It was a little hard but I made it. I took a rest on a footbridge. I also got the Shingles shot today, which makes me feel good. I'm happy to finally take care of that. I get the second dose in 8 weeks.

[Fuzzybear]

I would enjoy it if I liked water like this bear does.