I want to try to die

I really want to try I’ve been feeling this way for 4 years and the only way to end this feeling is to at least try. If I live, I’m meant to live. If I die, I’m meant to die. I think no one will believe I’m struggling unless I at least try and then whether I live or die no one can say I wasn’t struggling.

Hi. I've felt that way before. It's an awful lonely place to be. It's good that you reached out here, and hopefully you can get some understanding and support.

If you are in crisis right now, I do suggest that you seek professional help either by going to the ER or calling 911 or by calling a crisis line. There is a text line you can text with 741741 and they might be of assistance to you.

I wonder, do you have a therapist? Sometimes having someone to talk through these thoughts can be very helpful. I think having someone there for you that can validate your struggling self could be very beneficial.

Suicidal thoughts might be kind of common but that doesn't mean that you have to act on them. It's good to seek out sources of care. Do you have any friends, family, Church members etc that you could reach out to and say that you are struggling? You wouldn't have to bare your soul, but sometimes just having someone to sit with you through the pain can be enough.

I hope you will feel a renewal of purpose and hope soon and that you can keep going forward in life. HUGS if wanted, Kit

I see you are in America, the new number is 988. I’m sorry you don’t feel anyone is taking you seriously and that you have to resort to such drastic measures. Have you tried having an open honest talk with a health professional?

I was also wondering if you have a therapist?

It's good that you reached out here. I agree with the replies above. Hugs if wanted

Yes, but I only have one more session with them. So I’m nervous to say this out of the blue at my last session.

Why do you I my have one session? I'm guessing it has to do with insurance or something. I wish I knew what to tell you that would be of help. I have had long standing struggles too.i know what it feels like too well. If you have a therapist, even if it's the last session, I might be a good idea to be honest about what you're feeling. I know it's kind of meaningless to say, but I do hope things get better for you.