[Rosi700]

I have had a good Christmas celebration together with my family. My only worry is that perhaps I have eaten too much.

I hope that those of you who had not so good Christmas celebrations are ready to move on.

I am facing one of my triggers, not big yet, but it can be if I don't prepare how to meet it. We are all different. One of my problems is that I need structured days to prevent that old memories do not tear me down. Now I have been three days without my usual structure. The chance is there that the old memories kick in and that they can lead me into deeper depression.

After writing this I will go right to repeat my notes about how to prevent setbacks and then to my personal planner and schedule all of tomorrow, so I will not drift away in my thoughts.

[Rose76]

Christmas day was fairly ok. Today I just keep sitting or lying down. I know what I should do. But I don't. I got a bad feeling that I'm not going to pull out of this.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I received a gift card, along with a Christmas card, from the friend whom I just recently let go. It was sent out to me just before I split up with him. It's a gift card I can use because I shop there. I called him, even though I didn't want to, to thank him for the card. We talked a little bit but I still don't want to remain friends with him.

I got a call today from the Urologist's office. I'll have a phone conversation with the Urologist two weeks from now. He and his nursing staff are away for the holidays now.

Wow! I hope everything will work out for the best.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Christmas day was fairly ok. Today I just keep sitting or lying down. I know what I should do. But I don't. I got a bad feeling that I'm not going to pull out of this.

That is good.

[will19]

I was busy throughout today. Some stores were opened that I needed to do business with. I went to an auto parts store to get two lift supports replaced on my hatchback. The hatchback would not stay up to remain open. I had that happen for six months. That was bound to happen because the car is old. After lunch I went out to pick up some more things I needed. Other than that, not much to report about. I've been feeling alright today but on an even plateau.

[Breaking Dawn]

Yes, the ol' ups & downs. That's for sure. Oh well. Ha ha.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Yes, the ol' ups & downs. That's for sure. Oh well. Ha ha.

Me too!

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

That is good.

No. It's not good.

I know you mean well. But you comment, without understanding.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

No. It's not good.

I know you mean well. But you comment, without understanding.

sorry for my misunderstanding.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really down lately. I’m trying everything that I know to do to feel better. My emotions are

[Yzen]

I have a headache that started on the 25th and has continued all the way to today. I probably need to talk to my doctor again about these headaches. I know they are stress related.

[will19]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I have a headache that started on the 25th and has continued all the way to today. I probably need to talk to my doctor again about these headaches. I know they are stress related.

Sorry about your headache. I don't know if I'm of any help or not; there are times I get what I call a "24-hour" headache. It would last that long; and even taking headache relief doesn't help. I'm not a doctor, by all means, but I think you're smart to ask. I hope the doctor can help you.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I have a headache that started on the 25th and has continued all the way to today. I probably need to talk to my doctor again about these headaches. I know they are stress related.

Stress can cause a lot of physical and mental health problems

[Rosi700]

I was able to follow the schedule I made for myself yesterday (Up early, physical exercises, repeating therapy notes, have done relaxation exercises, gone outside for a walk and have had proper meals).

I have pain in my muscles. I will take a paracetamol before bedtime. I will try to use the same schedule for tomorrow.

Another "thing" that has bothered me today is a feeling of sleepiness. I have resisted the urge to lay down.

[will19]

Fairly busy this morning. Nothing much this afternoon and evening. It's been noisy here as there's remodeling work being done and new fire alarms were put in; and each one tested, which cause the two alarms in my unit to go off. Very loud and piercing with a high-pitched sound.

It's strange how, every day, I feel good between after breakfast and lunch. While I wake up before getting out of bed, my mind is filled with anxious thoughts. After breakfast, I feel pretty good like I've been turned up-side-down. After lunch I feel let down. Then I feel better during and after my bike ride; and feel alright while cooking and eating dinner. The evenings were nice when I used to talk to my friend, but not anymore since I decided to split with him. The last few phone calls we had were getting too intense for me with his criticizing. I miss him, though, and I wish it didn't end up like that.

[Rose76]

I still haven't gotten back to a normal frame of mind. I feel like this is never going to end.

[Rosi700]

Today is one of these "creepy" days, when hopelessness is creeping in over me. I feel that fighting for recovery is not worth it.

"STOP a bit, didn't you tell yesterday that you saw it as a (pre)trigger?" I did and I will use my recovery-tools to come out of this feeling of "nothing is of value" phenomena.

Always Hope

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I was able to follow the schedule I made for myself yesterday (Up early, physical exercises, repeating therapy notes, have done relaxation exercises, gone outside for a walk and have had proper meals).

I have pain in my muscles. I will take a paracetamol before bedtime. I will try to use the same schedule for tomorrow.

Another "thing" that has bothered me today is a feeling of sleepiness. I have resisted the urge to lay down.

That is amazing

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really awful.

[Rosi700]

Well, this has not been one of my best days, but I was able to fill the washing machine, hang up the washed clothes and take a shower. At least something.

Tomorrow I have invited guests. Have to get up early, hoover and visit the grocery store (and lay the table & make the food ready of course). I feel that I will be able to do it! (Hope I am not wrong).