[3rd rock]

While cleaning out my fridge, I discovered significant rusting on the inside, at the bottom. I did not notice this before. I am worrying about possible eviction from my apartment based on this if I report it, as my landlord might accuse me of damaging the unit. I have nowhere else to go and no family or friends I can take up with. On my income I am not sure I can afford a place of my own, as even modest apartments cost $2,000 to $2,500 a month in this city. I can't move to a different city as my job ties me to this one. This has sent me into a spiraling depression and I am currently in a very dark headspace.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by hiddenaway

Woke up in physical pain. That’s nothing new, but I wish I could wake up without it for once.

I believe you. I feel the same way.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by hiddenaway

Woke up in physical pain. That’s nothing new, but I wish I could wake up without it for once.

Originally Posted by giddykitty

i'm feeling ignored today
not necessarily on here, I actually mean on my social media account,
but it could be here too. I realize not many people read my blog posts

i'm feeling really depressed today. I'm feeling really sad
about the fact that certain things in life I'll never have or never
achieve, because I'm a loser.
I feel stupid. I get easily frustrated and lose sight of goals...
that is, if i even have goals in the first place. Everything seems so like
i don't even know.
I'll shut up now. Not like anyone wants to hear me speak anyway.

People ignore me on social media or in real life

[TheGal]

I feel like cr*p... woke up on the wrong side of the bed today and just can't seem to shake it. Nevertheless, I shall go mow the lawn... make the best of it. Tomorrow is another day.

Was busy this morning and that made it nice for me. Nothing much after lunch. I bumped into a couple of my neighbors I'd rather not talk to as they bring me down. One guy was giving me the "you shoulds" for my life when I never asked for advice. This guy doesn't have anything going for himself, so he should talk! And then a woman, who lives in my place, came to me out of nowhere and got talking about how bad the neighbors are and is planning to sue the complex for stress they've put on her. All of this despite that there's been a lot of tension going on lately at my place and people are moving out because of it.

[Rose76]

I'm doing better today. I might actually come out of this slump.

[hiddenaway]

Feeling mostly okay today. Could do with more coffee though.

[TheGal]

Knock on wood that it continues, but I've been feeling alright today... <<gratitude>>

[Rose76]

Make-up sex may be fun, but make-up housework ain't. After days of neglecting everything, I came out of my funk and have been putting my household ducks in a row (dishes, bed making, straightening the living room, laundry, etc.) Starting felt miserable, but I got on a roll. Now I feel pretty good.

[Buffy01]

I really need :hug to figure out what is causing me to feel so depressed

[Rose76]

Dreamt I was going to the hospital to visit my love. Then woke to reality. Made me sad.

[hiddenaway]

Well, that didn’t last long cause just about everything is making me cry today.

I wish I could cuddle up with Drew until I feel better.

It's been an alright kind of day, though a couple of things were disappointing. I got my medical result and it was not as good as I had hoped. It's not bad but I felt like it should have been better. And then the Jacuzzi at where I live is shut down again. It seems like it's been shut down a lot this year. I miss it when I can't use it.

[Rose76]

I'm doing ok. My apartment is still messy from me being depressed recently. Achilles tendonitis also is hampering me getting work done. I'm happy about recent weight loss.

no sleep, no plans, I'm a ****ing joke..

Originally Posted by raging vortex

no sleep, no plans, I'm a ****ing joke..

I know how you feel. I feel the same way. You are not a joke, you're far from it. I know I can feel that way about myself.

Originally Posted by will19

I know how you feel. I feel the same way. You are not a joke, you're far from it. I know I can feel that way about myself.

thanks, it's just so hard to think of something I've done that isn't eating, peeing, staring at a wall taking meds, or crying

doesn't exactly fill me with confidence

[Buffy01]

I am wondering :sadhug if me holding in my anger is causing me to feel depressed :sadhug.

[hiddenaway]

I’m…okay.

Somebody on another site I frequent replied to one of my posts in a game thread with ‘hit Drew Carey over the head with a 2x4’ and even though it was meant as a joke, I didn’t see it that way.

I - I’ve felt like crying all day cause Drew means so much to me and that hurt. It was like if somebody insulted my significant other, yknow?

[TheGal]

Today ... I feel like crawling under a rock.