[Rose76]

Lazy. Feel like going back to bed. Tired. There's no reason why I should be tired. I just feel most comfortable lying down.

[3rd rock]

I went to the local rapid access clinic for addictions, but it's closed on the weekends. I wish they would've said this on their website (which just lists the hours, 8:30-4:30 without respect to days) as it would've saved me a drive across town.

[Rose76]

Got nothing done so far today. I seem to always feel more listless on weekends.

I got to started fighting harder to get back to normalcy. This being down has gone on way too long.

[LadyShadow]

I go up and down, but it's mostly down at nighttime. Nights are so hard for me; I fall deep into despair and a tear falls from my eyes right before I try and sleep only to be woken up suddenly a few hours later.

The day is just started, so I don't have any plans. I'm not planning to go anywhere because it's a holiday. I feel like I need holidays like a hole in the head. Yesterday wasn't a great day. It was dull. I purchased something online I feel like I don't want after one use so I wanted to return it for a refund. So far I'm having a problem with that.

And then, while bike riding yesterday, I ran over something that appeared to be like liquid chocolate on the bike lane. I don't know what it was. It made my tires a bit messy. It's really bad on how inconsiderate people are.

[3rd rock]

I missed work again today, because I was very sick and throwing up earlier. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I'm going to go into the mental health center as a walk-in on Friday. Something has to change or else my life is just going to keep getting worse. It's some small miracle my employer hasn't yet asked me about the time I've been missing lately.

I'm feeling depressed and discouraged. I've been feeling like that for practically all of my life. Most days are mediocre but there are some real bad days. There have been some good days, but not many.

I'm feeling discouraged because of the lack of a good social life. My family is like nothing, I don't have good quality friends, and my neighbors don't seem to like me.

I have a semi-annual dental check up this Thursday. I'm really not looking forward to it. It's putting a damper in my spirits for this week, though when it's over and if it goes well, it won't make much of a difference on how I feel.

[Buffy01]

:: o when I found the emotional wound that I am trying to process and let go of the hurt that was caused.

[hiddenaway]

Anxiety hit me hard today. Nuff said.

[LadyShadow]

Drowning. I wish I had a drink even after being sober for three years. Night time is really hard.

[Rose76]

Today was a pretty good day.

[3rd rock]

There's nearly a foot of snow outside and the city has shut down the street I live on. That's never happened before in the 13 years I've been living in this apartment. As a result I had to call in to work tonight I'm not happy about missing work, but neither am I upset about not having to go in. Experience dictates the city won't clear the street by tomorrow night, either, so I'll have to miss Thursday night as well. I'll stay in and try to get some writing done. The forecast calls for higher temperatures and rain over the weekend, so I will probably be fine to get to work on Monday. I will stay home and I won't drink. Instead, I'll try to get some writing done, read a bit, and in general try to relax and focus on the night.

I have an intake appointment at the local mental health and addictions clinic on Monday. I'm anxious about going as I'm not sure what to expect. My prior experience with addictions (I got sober about 8 years before my relapse broke 8 years of sobriety) dictates that I can't get sober alone, so this is an important first step, I suppose.

[hiddenaway]

I'm not sure if I'm hormonal or just having a bad few days but I just feel like crying. Not even Drew is doing much at this point.

[Rose76]

Today is not going as well as yesterday. I must accomplish something, or I'll get sucked deeper down into the vortex.

[hiddenaway]

...well, I was (and am) hormonal. Ugh.

Today was a pretty nice day. The dentist went well, a great check up. I really like the hygienist a lot. She's very nice to me and gives me tips and pointers when there's a problem area.

And I'm able to get a refund back from an online order I made. I feel bad for having to return an item, but it didn't serve me well.

[Rose76]

Today went a lot better than yesterday. Showered, dressed and ran an errand. I'm still packing up Xmas decorations. I'll improve even more, once I get all this stuff in my storage closet. At least I'm making progress.

[Buffy01]

I think that my family is causing me to feel depressed with all their put downs

[Calla lily12]

I'm going from depression to hypo mania . The hypo mania is from the ECT I'm getting. The doctor is aware and he's keeping an eye on it. I actually like the hypo mania. It feels like a relief to feel semi normal.

[Rose76]

I'm doing a lot better. I just have to keep moving forward with getting organized.