[will19]

I'm feeling so-so to slightly depressed today. I've had a headache for most of the day. I slept better last night than I have in a while but I got up early. I'm feeling fatigued.

I miss the Jacuzzi at where I live because it's been closed for a little more than a week. There's supposed to be a leak to fix on it and it doesn't look like it's going to be done soon. Having that little tool has helped me even though it's not a big deal in itself. Also I miss having my wine at dinner. I can't have it for a while because of being on antibiotics. So lately I've unexpectedly had two privileges taken away. It feels like I'm being punished.

[hiddenaway]

Still really, really emotional cause hormones. I could just cry, embarrassing as that is.

[TheGal]

I feel awful... I'm really struggling...

[Buffy01]

I’m thinking about making a collage for my my depression and anger

[will19]

The usual for today. When I got out of bed, I got a little pain on the upper back on the left side. It's not bad but it's a nuisance. Whenever I would do something, it would hurt more. I think it's a pinched nerve that just got there out of no where. I've had it before.

I'm just slogging through the day. My mind seems to be on about some things I had that are unavailable now and the people in the past I miss. I keep myself going and that helps but it doesn't take the pain away.

I would say that June is my least favorite month of the year. It seems like it's a month when bad things happen, including this year.

[jaklevco]

I woke up early in order to catch an early train. I haven't slept properly for at least a week. Again, I realize all my efforts and doing my best lead to failre and significant drawbacks. Everything what I care about has fallen apart during the last month. Tomorow, I have the last chance to pass an important/difficult exam and my computer broke down... Everything I can look forward to is getting cancelled or there are other reasons why I cannot be a part of it. I have no loved ones and there is no one who would support me

[hiddenaway]

I feel lost.

I could cry but at the same time, it’d be like the scene from Alice In Wonderland cause I haven’t properly cried for so long - over two years.

[will19]

The last couple of days have been slow and dull. Today was a mixed-bag of news. The good news is that I got a leak on the bathroom sink repaired with a new faucet and it looks cool. The bad news is that the Jacuzzi is going to be closed for a while. I don't know how long. Someone earlier today came to estimate a job to repair it. There's going to be a lot involved. So I don't know if the job will be done at all, and if the job will be done, I don't know when it will happen. I will miss that Jacuzzi because it gets me out of my place for a little bit and it's relaxing.

[hiddenaway]

…and just when I think I’m finally starting to feel better, I start crying all over again.

God, I hate feeling everything as deeply as I do.

[jaklevco]

Today, I received results of one of difficult exams. I didn't make it by negligible amount of points. But what is worse is that I got zero for two correct options (or at least very questionable) so, of course, I feel that I deserve to pass. There is one more exam ahead. That one is most important and most difficult and I am very curious how will it go considering the fact that not for the first time this term, I got results I did not deserve...

[Buffy01]

I started using a depression :hug collage to help release my emotions

[will19]

I was busy this morning. I put out a couple of applications that could improve my finances. Nothing much in the afternoon. It's just typical of my days - busy and alive in the mornings; dull and inactive in the afternoons.

Yesterday a man came to analyse the Jacuzzi that's been closed at where I live. I guess he told the manager that a lot of work has to be done to get it repaired. I'm wondering when will it be done? It's been two weeks now since it's been closed and I really miss it. In fact, four years ago when I was looking for a place to live, seeing that Jacuzzi sold me. And now it's not going to be usable for a good while.

Tomorrow I go to the Lab for a urine test. Last week I was diagnosed with a urinary infection, which was a surprise to me since I didn't feel like anything was wrong. I was on antibiotics for a week and I'll see how this will turn out.

[hiddenaway]

Feeling a bit lovestruck over Drew today (which is much better than how I was feeling).

[Rose76]

I've been in a good frame of mind for a while now.

[will19]

This morning I went to the Lab to give them a urine sample. I went there two weeks ago and was told I had a urinary infection. I took antibiotics for a week, and after finishing that regimen, I went this morning to give the sample. I haven't heard any result yet but I have anxiety about it.

In the early afternoon, I got into disagreements with my sister (she called me after a month and a half of not hearing from her) and my only friend. I feel bad about it and feel like I'm a rotten and unlikable person.

[Stillhuman]

I’m feeling hopeful today

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

This morning I went to the Lab to give them a urine sample. I went there two weeks ago and was told I had a urinary infection. I took antibiotics for a week, and after finishing that regimen, I went this morning to give the sample. I haven't heard any result yet but I have anxiety about it.

In the early afternoon, I got into disagreements with my sister (she called me after a month and a half of not hearing from her) and my only friend. I feel bad about it and feel like I'm a rotten and unlikable person.

Might take some time to get the results back. Sometimes we just need a break from people who have hurt us.

[hiddenaway]

I’m okay today. Just kinda existing but not sad or anything.

[will19]

I got my urine test result early this morning, and so far, it looks good. The only item I haven't received yet is the urine culture. I think it takes two days to see if there's any growth. As far as the result is for the bacteria in urine, it's all clear (or none), so I think it's a good sign. But I'm cautiously optimistic. Two weeks ago, when I took the test, there were some in the urine bacteria count. Not this time, but we'll see.

Once again, I was busy in the morning, but nothing much in the afternoon. I'm feeling better today because of getting the result this morning but I would feel better when it's all done.

[Buffy01]

Feeling down depressed