[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

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And now I just found out that a small apartment place across the street from where I live will be torn down and a larger apartment place will be built up. I guess the people living at the apartments have been evicted. So that will mean a lot of noise for the next few months or so and then there will be not enough parking for everyone in the new units. So parking is going to be a problem even more. I feel like I made a big mistake and I can't get out of it.

And I've been feeling depressed and alone a lot more so recently. It's a wonder to me that I keep my sanity.

Same here, the development is out of control. And I heard on the news how some fires started at homeless camps spread to nearby buildings, both commercial and residential. The homeless broke into the power supply for the street lights, to power their tents and a fire breaks out from the heat build up. I actually bear them no ill will per se, my anger is directed at our system and culture, about individual choices and victim blaming.

There's a lot of roadwork going on around here, both on my street and the next. I don't know where all those cars go, as people can't park weekdays 9am - 4pm. The noise is unbearable and I can't open my windows while it's going on. I feel the city is in the toilet and they will bury me in this crap apartment. I mean where can I go? Just thinking about how vulnerable I am and how a homeless camp fire could burn down MY building. The shuttered gas station I mentioned below is collecting a few tents now. It's been at least 4 years since they proposed to develop that corner, and nothing there except an idle Caterpillar tractor plus a pile of dirt.

[will19]

I'm depressed and on edged lately. I just found out a couple of days ago that a small apartment place across the street will be torn down and being replaced with a larger one. But this morning I found out that, down the street from me, they will be tearing down a couple of businesses and will put up a 20-story high rise apartments. I recently signed a lease for a whole year, not knowing that these things would happen, and now I'm going to be stuck with madness for a whole year.

Lately I haven't been sleeping well at night and, for the last three days, it's been noisy at my place with tree trimming and mulching at where they will build that high rise. I thought that the high rise was not going to happen since it was proposed about two years ago and the neighbors protested. We lost!

I called my sister today for comfort from her. It didn't go well. We were both thinking of places where I could move to, since I feel like the area where I am is going downhill. All we did was just name places but no solutions or good ideas. What really frustrated with me the most was that she kept on repeating the same places over and over again. I think she is coming down with Alzheimer's. She sounded like she had brain fog.

[Buffy01]

I feel really bad especially lately due suppressing my emotions

[will19]

This day is only halfway over as of now. I've been feeling like a real Gloomy Gus since I've be up. It's been a gloomy day outside and cool.

I expected that this morning was going to be racket-mania around where I live. There's been some tree trimming down the street from me but it seems like they are finishing up. So not much noise from them. There's supposed to be trees being chopped down and mulching directly across the street from me but it hasn't happened. It's weird that it's so quiet when I thought there'd be a lot of noise. But I'll take it!

Nothing much else to report about, but the day isn't over yet, so we'll see.

[rjdb]

Been in a funk for like a week now. Depressed jobless, you name it. Want to cry. Trying to keep it together for my son.

[will19]

Originally Posted by will19

This day is only halfway over as of now. I've been feeling like a real Gloomy Gus since I've be up. It's been a gloomy day outside and cool.

I expected that this morning was going to be racket-mania around where I live. There's been some tree trimming down the street from me but it seems like they are finishing up. So not much noise from them. There's supposed to be trees being chopped down and mulching directly across the street from me but it hasn't happened. It's weird that it's so quiet when I thought there'd be a lot of noise. But I'll take it!

Nothing much else to report about, but the day isn't over yet, so we'll see.

That tree work across the street, I mentioned earlier, never happened. There were "no parking" signs on the street which took up about six spaces that were put up last Thursday. No parking was going to be in effect for today and tomorrow. The signs were taken away this morning. The work was something I wasn't looking forward to.

[3rd rock]

I'm battling suicidal thoughts, and every day that I spent on these endless waitlists for care is a day the thoughts get stronger.

[3rd rock]

My thoughts have advanced from mere contemplation to considering methods. I don't know who to turn to about this. I told the staff at the emergency room I want to die but when they asked if I have a plan and I answered honestly no, they didn't take me seriously. So I have no one to talk to about this.