Medication isn’t working. Am I doomed to being secerly depressed forever?

I was taking Cymbalta & now it’s something I can’t recall. The dosage keeps increasing but nothing changes. I’ve been severly depressed to where I can barely function ar times.

Just getting out of bed & managing to go to the store & go to the doctors or anywhere sometimes is a chore.

Some days are easier than others though. I’d stay home if I didn’t need to get toilet paper today, lol 😆

I have put off doing things like cleaning the house ar times. Is it like that for anyone else too? I feel ashamed of myself & like I’m completely useless. I think other people think that I’m some lazy loser too probably. They have no idea what it’s like to barely be able to function usually. My husband thinks that I’m lazy. I ger so irritated when my friends pressure me to get a job.

I’m more depressed now as finanes are very bad & my husband keeps threatening to leave me & take me iff the joint account for withdrawing any money from the bank. He’s financially abusive. I can’t work. I have physical & mental issues. I tried, believe me. I’ll just her fired or quit in a week again or less.

I’m stuck. No one wants to hire someone like me. Not unless they can’t find anyone better which is rarely the case.

I’ve been abused & bullied by a lot of people my whole life. My family is unsupportive & crazy. My dad is a narc, my sister is a career criminal & a psychopath, my mom is like a self absorbed whiny child with paranoid personality disorder, my husband is financially & emotionally abusive & I don’t really have any close friends to talk to.

I have one friend, but I think she should sick of hearing about my issues. Therapy is a joke. I can’t afcord it & I got dumped a few months ago because I’m obviously a lost cause who wasn’t making progress fast enough after a few months. I give up.

Is there anyone else who feels the same wat that I do too? I know that I should eat better & excercise, but trust me, that’s not enough to help me get better.

I think that not having constant stress in my life & getting love, care & support from friends & family would help me more than medication or therapy ever could.

Obviously I don’t have that support system. I’ll definitely loose friends again & annoy people with my ‘needy’ behaviour if I rely on any of them for support to often.

This sucks I feel so alone & like nothing will ever get better for me. My family didn’t even wish me a happy birthday this year. That’s OK as I hate them. I never had a real family or real love in my life.