[Questionings]

Somehow, I haven't had an empty bank account for about fifteen years now, mostly because I mainly buy the essentials, yet the misery only grew, the loneliness ever increasing, and the one thing I'd like the option to have is to end my life.
By the way, if anyone has the time, and desire to read (mostly about this sort of topic, although more abstractly psychological, philosophical), message me... I sometimes write quite a bit, but no one usually wants to read...

[ZilchHour]

Originally Posted by Questionings

Somehow, I haven't had an empty bank account for about fifteen years now, mostly because I mainly buy the essentials, yet the misery only grew, the loneliness ever increasing, and the one thing I'd like the option to have is to end my life.
By the way, if anyone has the time, and desire to read (mostly about this sort of topic, although more abstractly psychological, philosophical), message me... I sometimes write quite a bit, but no one usually wants to read...

You’ve got money in the bank, but no return on investment where it matters. That’s the cruel trick life plays—it convinces us survival is enough. It isn’t. Don’t disappear into silence. Write. Share. Someone will read. Connection is the only currency that holds its value.

[MuddyBoots]

How does having enough money to live equate to loneliness? Or am I misunderstanding the connection you're trying to make?

I don't know. I live in a city and most the relationships I have are from bumping into the same people all the time whether they're in the same apartment or go to the same place as me a lot or whatever. If we hang out we're usually just chilling at the park, watching a (free) movie at the library, going to some group together (our building has them usually at least weekly, and I started going to a recovery group with a few other people lately). We don't really worry about feeding each other because we're generally broke fks that don't like other people coming over to our closets or with their 2 roommates home all the time so just meet out in the community and if it'll be during a time we want to eat we'll bring stuff for ourselves, maybe share something homemade that turned out really good. My relationships were probably actually the strongest when I was homeless although I wasn't really capable of healthy relationships at the time being in and out of an abusive relationship and not realizing/caring about what was good/bad. But in general people were supportive and tried to be helpful, but maybe not all that healthy themselves.

But I'm curious as to how you think people perceive money, and why having a not-empty bank account is why you're miserable