[FlffyChic]

i should be so happy. i have no worries at this point, for once. but i'm so emotionally flat. i have been depressed since early childhood, never been in therapy, been on and off meds for the last 4 or 5 years. i'm on my 2nd week of cymbalta now (60mg) and i know it hasn't really had time to get in my system. but i want to be happy so bad. i can't even cry, i can't really smile, i just don't know. i get easily agitated and that is the only response i seem to have. i would be perfectly happy sitting on my couch not moving or talking. all i want to do is sleep. it's not the meds because this was even worse prior to starting the medicine. i just need something to look forward to. i have a 6 year old son at home who really needs his mom to smile and play once in a while. any encouragement would be happily received. prayers are also welcome.

[cajun]

FlffyChic, Hang in there. It took my Cymbalta about 4 or 5 weeks to really start working. I've been right where you are. Laying on the couch all day feeling frustration and agitation. Hope you feel better soon..........Cajun

[nowheretorun]

hi FlffyChic

what helped me a lot was finding things and activities i could smile about... pictures of kittens always got me... then i put a few up around the place, so i could remember the goal... to smile, to feel good..

there's other ways of encouraging yourself like little statements, affirmations put around in places you'll run into them and read them... even if you didnt read each time... the note/reminder/pic will help you remember the goal ... to smile and feel good inside...

try it awhile if you think it'll help? it takes time... positive energy has a snowball effect too..

and prayers and wishes for you and son...

[mrsmoggles]

I will pray for you hun...I know that, ughh I hate to call it a feeling, way of life...sending warm thoughts your way...maybe try coloring a pic with your son..it is soemthing that will engage him and maybe you can crack the foundation of the depression that has its hold on ya....have a race crawling...go worm hunting...see who can find the grossest thing in the fridge (that is killing 2 birds with one stone- you will get to clean out fridge!! and make gross stories to tickle sons fancy)...have a slurping contest and a pillow fight is always great!!!...a good tickle and the sound of his laughter can work miracles too...i often felt better from listening to their laughter...huggles, take care, and there is a light at the end of the tunnel...your friend if needed, melanie

[FlffyChic]

thank you for your support! there are some great suggestions that i am going to give a go at. i do so love to hear my son laugh. i'm feeling better today than i was yesterday. i did actually smile this morning, when my dog came in from the cold she was so happy to see me, i caught myself with a smile on my face. the first one in a long time. hopefully more to come where that came from. my dr said the cymbalta may take 4-5 weeks so i'm going to keep taking it and not give up so soon. thanks to all again who posted.

[Candor]

Boy..... I can relate to those feelings too well, unfortunately. I wish I had something really encouraging to say,but it's hard when you're struggling too. I guess I just wanted to let you know, that you're not alone & some1 is praying for you.C

[Fuzzybear]

[ECHOES]

meds always made me feel flat emotionally.

would you consider therapy? it is such a great gift to give yourself!!