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Member Since Dec 2006
Location: Roma, Italy
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... I used to pose as a nihilist. I thought it was cool. And it WAS indeed.
As an adult, I have really become a nihilist, and it's NOT cool at all. When THAT feeling rises, I can't value anything, no tiny part of reality. But after all I'm not even a good nihilist, or I would simply be indifferent. No, I care a lot, I am worried and anguished, I suffer. I've not felt good in 5 weeks, not even for a minute. Depression rises for a few days sometimes. Now it has risen. I'm growing tired, very tired. Thank you for listening |
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Member Since Jan 2007
Location: england
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first thing, you have very good syntax. better than mine and im a brit.
second. i guess i am a nihilist myself sometimes. it does suck awesomely. i find myself pretending im not so as to not demoralise others, then i wonder what the hell. it is depressing. never was cool for me just the way i turned out. i guess an understanding of the wider world that many kids dont have doesnt help either. oh well. call me depressing, doesnt matter much. tis a shame that u feel so crap, i know how u feel. for the last few days i have been considering ejecting myself from the totally pointless reality. only to be brought back from that 'stupid' idea bu other people when they realise. i am not one to abandon people who need help. to be honest. so i do try help people even when it looks damn pointless. which is most of the time really, but yeah. gotta try for others eh? bla tc dot __________________ i miss you... 'cuz the drugs dont work, they just make you worse, but i, know ill see your face again...' 'welcome friends. i am potato.' |
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Location: Rocky Mtn High, love all :)
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Stefano, one thing i respect is the ability you have to recognize the cycles and descriptively define them for others...
but it such a cost to you..... thanks for sharing and caring... i hope today is an improvement... the cycle will go around tho and the good days are ahead again.... hang in there... |
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