I am poisonous..

I'm a little sleepy, so I won't write as much as I typically do, which is a lot

If you really REALLY feel like it can't get worse, then as cliché as it sounds, you really have nowhere to go but up. Knowing, or having someone say, that you're your own worst enemy can be extremely painful, especially if you know it's true. But it's a great place to start healing.

There's no way to fail at friendship. Some of my best friends just sit around and say nothing. Friendship can be as simple as that, or as complicated as all-get-out. Wanting to be loved, or have friendships isn't selfish - it's as human as being born. And in my book, we all deserve love from the moment we're born. Friendship until proven guilty. You haven't done anything to deserve it, from me, or from yourself.

At the end of the day, there's only one person you absolutely have to be friends with anyway: somebodysomeday. I suspect that the reason you don't feel comfortable or loved by your friends is as simple as this.

So do something someone you'd respect and love would do! Go give some money to the Girl Scouts (mmm.. Thin mints...), or learn something fascinating and new. Or write a forum response that's WAY longer than you meant

*more hug* - bookmark what nowheretorun said, and read it every time you feel low.

It's not selfish to want to be loved. It's the core of being human. It is our deepest want and most desperate need. And simply wanting to be a good friend is a huge step in the right direction.

If you were a truly selfish person, then you wouldn't care what kind of friend you were. You wouldn't be concerned about how your actions affect the people who care about you.

If you can understand this about yourself, and realize that you are n't as horrible as you think, maybe you can become a bit more confident in your relationships. Thinking well of yourself is not being conceited or grandiose or delusional. It's attractive and healthy.

Try making a list of your accomplishments. When you see how far you've come, you'll have agood reason to be proud of yourself. And celebrate those accomplishments. Get your friends together and go out. They'll be proud of you, too.

friends who dumped you or hurt you were not really your friends. friends are people who stick by you, care about you, and are sensitive to your needs. you have friends here at psych central. we understand. we know depression. i personally do. ((((((((((somebody)))))))))) you are not poison. you are not a horrible person. you are a wonderful human being that is in pain and need compassion. you deserve compassion. ((((((((((((somebody))))))))))