<font color="purple">I just want to go away from the world right now, but it never stops, I never stop living. It's not like time would stop for someone either. I just don't want to be with people, ecven my friends, or even online. Even though I just want to be alone and away from everything, I still have to go to school, and talk to people, my family, and I stil come to PC even if don't want to, if only to see other people without having to say anything.

my grades are taking nosedives, my teachers have told me that I just don't seem like myself anymore, and am falling apart. My friends don't notice because I'm an introvert anyways and don't talk much to begin with. My family is worried to, but I think they are starting to get frustrated with me.

I'm not really sad or anything, I jst don't feel like being around anymore- at least for a little while. </font>

[RozG]

((((((((((((Kaika))))))))))))

[PaddlerKD]

((((((((Kaika)))))))))

Hang in there!

Sending positive vibes your way!

KD

[ziggy1]

(((Kaika))))) Hang in there Kaika....keep coming back....classes

are almost over too if I remember right(like in May)? Then you

can chill out and take a break......

<font color="purple">Well, because I live in New York State, I have about a week off in April, and then school lasts for a few weeks into june, and then it's tests/exams week, and "ends" (when the seniors graduate) on June 24th, but then again, we also start later then southern schools, which start again in August (we start again mid september)

thanks guys.</font>

I know it isn't much but I'm sending lots of good thoughts your way.

[ArianeB]

I feel for you very much. My thoughts are with you!

[SingDanceRunLife]

I am so with you it's insane. (((Kaika)))

And on the school front? I'm in NY too...So long until school's out! And then Regents? Not cool.

[Christina86]

(((((((((((((((Kaika)))))))))))))))

[Behindthemoon]

Dont give up.
i quite understand its hard for you at the moment but just stop going out okay?

[Pseudonym]

I often feel like that. I think in recent times, what with the overpopulation (especially in NYC!) and the technological closeness given to us by the internet and cell phones, we're not really as alone as a lot of us need to be. It's not your fault; people make demands on you, or force you to be social when you don't want to be, or even can be. If you can swing it, go somewhere outside the city, or to a local park, turn off your cell phone and just be alone for as long as you want. One day in high school, I carried around a little card that said, "no talking for today". When people asked me something, I'd just present the card. You'd be surprised how little I needed to. I found that we often talk because we're supposed to, not because we want to. I'm not suggesting you do this exact thing, but if you found some way to pull off not talking for a day, it might help.
good luck, and much love

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( Kaika )))))))))))))

[Abby]

Yeh i understand how you feel Kaika, at the moment i'm not sure if i can talk...to be honest i haven't seen anyone all day and thats not for lack of trying!

If you can, indulge youself a litte, watch your favorite film and pamper yourself a bit....maybe its your minds way of saying you need a little 'you' time. Talking can be over-rated anyway....sometimes i talk too much and want to stop but i cannot because i fear the silence.

((((hug))))

ps - i like the purple font you use, it makes you very unique!

[wisewoman]

I am sincerely sorry you are not feeling very well. I hope you can find help with family, doctor, friends. I live up North as well and we have April Vacation but we do start in August. My 20 year old is wondering how she will survive 6 more weeks till semester end. I do hope your mood starts improving. Be well.

[carrie_]

kaika sometimes i know how you feel.a lot of the time i wish i could just hibernate,sleep away months at a time and not talk to anyone.
but hang in there,it'll all come round for you eventually*hug*